nth worth believing in

realised this aft i signed out.
my posts r lk..
getting more and more suprficial.
they dont reallie describe how i feel lerhs.
maybe this post will.
i wun noe what um typing.
may not make sense
just type off my mind lerh

interunit quiz pple
JIAYOU!
"the pride of rvnp lies in your hands"
we must make it!
& we r gold unit le
so we must maintain it ^^
be the most qiang gold unit in area16 =D

i dno wad um thinking of half the time.
i dont reallie think lah
my mind just wanders..
thinking of things i just saw.
would things be diff if i reacted differently?
would it be the same if that person did not do what he/she did
omg.
um tired of all these random-ness
lk c'mon.
wads done cannot be undone
so y m i even thinking of them?!

lost.
fk-ed up
total screw up
thts wad i am^^

ooooo!
just found out i haven updated for longlonglong time lerhs.
sians..
wanted to come online today but cldn..
dumb tution.
waste time niax..

hee.
dumbly chiong-ed el proj for nth..
not presenting until next week
now spammed by hwk

& interunit quiz..

sian..
tht time reserve oni..
now in main team
so must study lk siao
do the practise papers
and hand in on tues.
fk lahh

on top of my hwkpile..

Zz
nvms
shall look on the bright side.
at least i get to enjoy all these stress
think um sadist?
Haha.
nvms.
y'all wun understand.
coz i dono oso^^

gotta go lerhs.
bb

whoots.
i can finally off com at 0000hrs.
ytd chiong proj til 0300 den fell aslp oni at 0330 lols.
tired..

omg..
trying to stay awake to edit slides for tmr.
today was practically...
lame..
was trying hard to kip awake and erm.. alert to surroundings..
dumb lah..
kip making myself ps coz i am barely awake..
zzz

rawr..
guess i wasted loads of on timothy today
he practically sucks as a team member.
totally lost my temper.
carn stand the way he PRETENDS no to now anything when instructions were given so clearly.
i mean wth
the others understood wads going on.
at least they got concerned, staying up to chiong with mi until 1+
& him?
playing chess with grandfather zhou.

sadly, though i try not to lose my temper most of the time, i don't feel guilty at all for doing so.
yea.

guess u really made mi hate u to da core & lose all my tolerance for u ba.
thats quite an achievement. GRATS!

-quite true if u noe mi well.. i mean um not that good-tempered but i don't reallie get so extreme-

sighssighs..
i miss piglet!!
piglet got miss mi?!
haha. JKJK

y cant others noe that i am doing my best?
um already trying.
you people give excuses that u r not free to meet for english proj anymore.
dats fine.
no one bothered asking me what u can do when there was time
no one bothered to contribute.
i didnt say anth did i?
i thot i cld trust yall as my frens but all yall gave was disappointment lahs
i planned everything and assigned the task, even organising the info for yall ler
ok.
to y'all i shld do this as the leader rite?
i done it and its ur turn to complete ur tasks.
y'all din do it.
didnt even bother checking email.
blaming me for evt when deres no time left.
LK WTF
seriously..
i told yall, called yall, reminded yall
wad else do yall want me to do?!
do the whole thing myself?
i wud if i had the time.
um not lk yall.
so smart.. i slack less den yall but yall get btr results
i nid the marks.
i carn let my mum down ler
i reallie carn.
can y'all just tell mi what i can do?
bet yall wil say how incapable i am, screwing up and all
i alrd noe yall are blaming mi from the tone yall talk to me now when yall call
THAT you are the leader and yet you carn do anth tone.

fine.
um the leader.
i will take the blame ok?
tmr if jtan asks,
i will just apologise and say its my fault for not being able to coordinate things ok?
perhaps that way yall will be happy FINE?

i shall not feel sad anymre
not worth feelin sad over a guy who doesn understand mi at all
i got real crazy thts y...
fine by me.
if u dno tht i oni get real crazy when um sad, den its alright ba
only shows how much u understand mi lor

oh ya..
can anyone lend mi their homework to REFER TO?
hehe.
i mean REFER as...[u noe i noe lahh]
and ehx.
suresh gna kill mi
bio undone.
teo gna murder mi
phys one whole assignment not done; though 2 others completed
oh ya. and my phys file..
zhang gna skin mi
haven read san guo yan yi
liu, khang, vijay gna chop mi
partially done hwk

OMG.
WHY IS THE WHOLE WORLD LK GETTING MURDEROUS?!
ahwells. um so not lame^^

rawr!
my hwk is still not completed yet
currently pissed off with my lang arts grp members
for god sake i noe we r frens but it does not excuse u frm sending the stuff and getting ur parts done on time
oh my tians.
i feel so shi bai.
as a student, as a leader(for the proj), as a gf etc

ok. not gf.
ex-gf.

ahwadevas.
um just a l-o-s-e-r lah

u said u won't abandon mi
promised u wud be there for mi
but..
its alright ba.
yingting's fine=D
she laughed after u broke up with her

yes. so that she wun cry
thx fer evt baby
i don't think u wud eveer wanna noe that i cried ba
so ya..
um not crying.
even if i do, no one will noe abt it
i will still be smiling in the eyes of others
and mostly YOU

helloos!
i finally updated again=D
hols nearly over lerhs and yet i haven finish hwk. so sad=(

went chionging with kelly on mon and tues+ kelly and yih today lols
stoopid phys.
sooooo freaking bohliaos lor
neways i love them lots!!

hmm...
pk course ytd and the day b4 sucks lahh
so boring i was falling aslp nearly all the time
zzZ
during homefront we were lafing at the instructor Rockey
his head reallie lk rock.
no hair dees xP

thts all i feel lk saying lols
before i emo again..
ahwells.
bye world

YAY!
my sqddies are back!

&weijun's finally back frm aust!

so proud of my sqddies=D
bet they persevered alotalot worhs
and ant and wenn horhh..
tsktsk
ant and antMotivator xP

okayy.
i shall quit being lame

ilovemy sqddies!
& of coz weijun and shaun and john
yeaa
the 3 guys pei mi alotalot esp my shaun gor and da sha gua john
reallie cheer mi up de lorhs^^
den weijun piglet..
tsktsk..
abandon mi for one whole week
but he come back liaos den call mi

none of them was as disappointing as baby lahh
none at all..
he come back liaos oni giv one word reply+attitude.
wtf lah
seriously i dont care if he wanna break now lorhs
if other guys can care for mi more den u,
den wtf are u doing lah..

ahwadeva..
nort gna let this affect my mood=D
if u arent gna care, neither am i going to k?

wahh..
tution over lerhs.
funny though mi and geraldine caused a minor "explosion"
hee.
all da sha gua and his jacket's fault lorr
justin went to play with the spoilt hood den mi and gerry try to control
end up sound lk giggle and then..
KABOOM!
jay exploded. yeps

abit paiseh lahh..
but wells.
lucky he nv point us out to scold sumore.
think i gna be HYSTERICAL
mygod lahh..
he scold so funny..
zzzzzZ

aiyah. fk lahh..
lame

OHYES
and i love him!
for the lil spasm he provided mi with

HEYS PEEPS!
UM SOOOOOO HAPPY!
can finally tie my hair up=D
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeees

ps. i gna tie it up to tution today just lk wad i did 2 days ago so pls do not think so much. u arent tt great y'noe.

i hate myself for being so easily hurt.
i suck
yes i noe tt
dont worry pple
i gna be fine
will become how i used to be
the yingting who is able to mask her emotions,
who is able to smile ever so happily even if things arent going how they used to be
thx for changing mi back into this emotionless freak=D
so grateful.
you know who u r

anon
i reallie rather i din find out tt it was u.
wish i didn have the feeling it was u as well
guess i dont have much of a choice
alrdy given up.
no point clinging on, living in the past etc
just leave
dont disappoint her
we wont let u off gettit?=D

sent my sqddies off ai airport lerhs!
haha.
sqddies must takkaires and enjoy worhs! =D
yingting aii ni men^^

i dno y but i feel so lost now.
just so confused.

&thx imaginery fren
reallie touched=D

wheeeeeeeeeeeees
back from cycling trip with family.
&ofcoz PLUS MY DARLING COUSIN!
had loads of fun lols.

went to visit the two doggies aft tt.
got to bathe NICOLE=D
soooo fun!

ok..
i shall stop being lame

hmmm..
gna c my sqddies off at airport tmr=D
zhu them yi lu shun feng ba!

ohyes anon,
thx fer ur concern etc
reallie lk to noe who u r.
yupps.
its ok if u don't wanna tell.
just say so ba..
given up on getting pple to tell mi who they r lerhs
will just take u as a....hmm..
IMAGINERY FREN=D
yuppies.
&i don't reallie care if i get hurt or whatsoever ^^
just wanna be happy

hellooooos=)
um back lols.
ok.. i din go newher..
just back to post xP

did flag day on wed.
met lotsa weird peepo lols.
can ask mi abt it if u interested.
yueting noes as well.
HAHA.

cca todayy
FUN!
but i fall out.
rawr...
stoopid shyt.
headache and felt lk puking. wth
den joined in for CD
funny lols=D
<3 size="4">at least i wanna learn how to walk in heels first KAY?
den zuo gui at least can gao abit xP
uh wells.
outta e point.

i DINNT cut myself!!
i only drew on my hand using penknife.
not pain de.
it so absolutely din hurt AT ALL
maybe it was coz i was crying too hard to notice.
but wells..
doesnt matter.
calmed down loadds aft tt=D
quite positive huh xP

i feel so free now=)
damn shuang

for now i just want baby back.
nth else
so i can make it up to him

i love u dar.
&i noe i mean it

lalas.
preparing np-u for lmsc tmr.
BAH!
my new shoes are...
forget it.. guess i shall havta wear the one full of cracks=(

boohoos..
just when i am beginning to enjoy prepare my np-u, those dumb things gotta do this to mi..

NOT FAIR

hmm..
sian-ed..
haven completed hwk

lalas.

guess um going crazyy
MISS DAR!
dumbo..
left mi for paris.
HMPHFF

i hate timothy.
yes i hate u guy.
get ur fking facts right before u talk OK?

pointONEum serious bout him.
yes.

so just shut ur crap.

pointTWO you think you are btr den him?!
JOKE
i mean lk seriously lahh..
YOU think YOU are superior?

LOOKHEREPPLE!I DISAGREE.
not ONLY me.
others too.

&WHYSO?it wud be a REAL joke(i emphasise) if a girl ever goes out with u.
he's obviously sooooo much better den u..
at least he does not put pple off.
& etcetc

oh my ~~god~~..
to think i still havta see you.
fking suay..
i mean u just make mi feel lk puking.
seriously nth to do with ur looks..
its just YOU

& i just polluted my blog..
but i cld have gone on on why i hate him..
but it just aint worth my precious energy

RAWR!
this lil girl here is sad...
sobsobx
gna miss baby..

ahhs wadeva

oh yea..
& my mum found out bout it...
=(

yting l.

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