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Wednesday, May 28, 2008
got this from PAN MEISHAN's blog look it over the following list and see how many of these things you have done. BUT you have to ADD up the money amount along the way. Then post the amount that you are as the title of the bulletin. PS: the smaller the better! 1. Had sex: $30.00 2. Smoked: $100.00 3. drank alcohol: $100.00 4. Went skinny dipping: $20.00 5. Kissed someone of the opposite sex:$90.00 6. Kissed someone of the same sex:$10.00 7. Cheated on a test: $100.00 8. Fell asleep in class: $10.00 9. Been expelled: $10.00 10. Been in a fist fight: $40.00 11. Given oral: $60.00 12. Got oral: $60.00 13. Prank called the police: $10.00 14. Stole something: $10.00 15. Done drugs: $20.00 16.Dyed your hair: $50.00 17. Done something sexually withsomeone older (like a few years):$20.00. 18. Courted someone OVER 18 (if yourunder 18): $50.00 19. Ate a whole bag of oreos: $60.00 20. Cried yourself to sleep: $10.00 21. Said you love someone but didntmean it: $95.00 22. Been in love: $90.00 23. Got caught doing something that you shouldnt have been doing: $80.00 24. Went streaking: $5.00 25. Got arrested: $10.00 26. Cuddled: $95.00 28. Played spin the bottle: $30.00 29. Done something you regret: $70.00 30. Peed in the pool: $5.00 & i cost $825.00 as u can see.. i uh.. aint very innocent Tuesday, May 27, 2008 my crazy fantasies i wna.. fly to t moon dance to t music of emotions have a fairytale life believe in happily ever after . . . . . & i wna.. have ur love for always been going kinda nutters these days having weird thots and cravings as well LOL & as u can c, my wants can only be brought by MAGIC & so... I SHALL BELIEVE IN MAGIC AS WELL HAHAHA -,- but my worst fantasy is yet to be revealed.. it's a horror in my opinion i wna buy a spongebob shirt, yellow leggings, black shoes, and black shorts.. SO I GNA LOOK LK SPONGEBOB! lalalala... urh, fine, im living in denial. i just want a good cry Monday, May 26, 2008 confused i thot i had let go. & i accepted tt we aint getting back tgt ever. aft all those hurtful stuff u said, i simply turned away i reallie cant believe it when i saw u again tgt with pinyang and weijun on t last day of school i prayed so hard aft t break up to be able to c you even if it was just a fleeting glance, even if it was from afar even if u were holding on to another gal & now i wish i hadn. i just want those memories to go away aft seeing you, i cldn help but think of t past i can still recall how it felt to be lying on ur shoulder i can still rmb nearly all t phone calls we had even though u hadn meant anth u said, im still clinging on to these memories d'you noe tt aft seeing u at queensway, i just kept concentrating on other stuff so i wun break down? aft michelle left i was so totally near tears but i was laughing over t fone to wj. yes i called him, i bet u knew but it was just to hear ur voice again even if it was from t bg rmb 19/5? i bet u dont. they mean nth to u damnit.. i suck. how can i have feelings for 2 guys at once? i miss HIM and yet im cant help thinking of Him fk. wad's wrong with me? slap me awake pls Tagged by mrBEAR~ [ps i aint gna tag anyone] 1) do you wish to do this test? - yeps. was hoping for a quiz to do and.. TADAAAA 2) who is more important to you? friends or boyfriend? - actually... same. SQDM8S are t ones(= 3) who is the person i trust most? - not a person. a deck of cards 4) do you think you have enough confidence? - hmm.. maybe a litre more will help 5) do you like jay chou? - nopes. but i LOVE his songs 6) do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain? - is it to be believed? i thot it's a natural phenomenon. but if u guys are talking abt yu guo tian qing stuff, NO 7) what is your goal this year? - drop phys! and of coz, OUT & AWAY FROM RVHS 8) do you believe in eternity love? - no 9) have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide? - idk. broken someone's heart,yes. but if tt guy wna commit suicide.. erh.. 10) what feeling you love most? - none. i prefer to be emotionless lk i was in sec2 11) what are the requirements that you wish from your other half? - plenty.. but tt bloke btr love me or else.. HAHA 12) will you fully trust a guy? - it depends. mutual stuff, yes. but if a guy says he loves me, i gna take it with a pinch of salt 13) are you lame? - no. im dumb 14) what do you think is the most important thing in my life? - erh.. how wld i know what YOU want? 15) do you love anime? - no but im fine with them 16) describe the person who tagged me in 5 words? - she's wonderful to be with 17) what have you done to please yourself - pretend tt things tt hurt me/ i dislike do not exist 18) if time were to rewind, when will you want it to be? - when i was lying on his shoulder and he was half hugging me 19) How do i look? - fugly 20) Where i work? - no fixed place. mainly takashimaya Sunday, May 25, 2008 & ytd was t last day of school(= & it was SUPER GLAMOUROUS tard^3, i ans-ed ur qn le shall not elaborate just tt it was sooo oh-my-god, on top of mumma having to mit ms ek for coffee talk WOW good gpa stuff I LOVE WORKING at least for now haha. ytd first day of work at taka. first shock was tt i gna be working with LAWRENCE e one who wants things to happen(eh yih?) 2nd shock was tt francis was dere 3rd shock i saw ex-nco while promoting bubble gun 4th shock i didn noe how to use screw driver 5th shock was wowness.. FRANCIS WAS OBSERVING ME AT WORK AND I DIDN REALISE totally embarrassing lah aft pack-up, tt nice collegue of mine told francis bout my lack of knowledge on using screwdrivers. (i had run to him for help , u see..) and francis was lk "wlan eh.. so big dno how to use screwdriver" before laughing at me -,- & i got lost in orchard expo tday damnit.. sell bubble gun and became bubbles. y did i say tt? KIDS WERE HITTING ME AS THEY TRIED TO GET E BUBBLES traumatising & im amazed^^ i stood for 6.5hrs w/o resting and went for only 20min break b4 cont heeheehee sales tday was ok-ish la.. maybe 50+ bubble guns? kinda sucky.. sld have done btr & boy, i miss u come back soon!! sounds dumb but u creep into my mind at e oddest moments Wednesday, May 21, 2008 t dumbdumb loves her sqdm8s! as to why i called myself dumbdumb, it's coz.. I LOST MY WAY TO WEST COAST PAK IN T MORNING $6.2 gone to taxi. & of coz, gotta thank pinyang and weijun [though py practially scolded me =x] duty for x-country was hell & t highlight of t day.. FUN WITH SQDM8S hohoho. went je and had this totally ZOMG photohunt session &.. WE WENT BOWLING wakaka~ was still fun though i had to leave aft t 2nd game im a TOTAL NOOB bro's flying off to shanghai tday & im stuck at home coz i wasn allowed to pon school tmr DAMNS! im praying i fall sick tmr morning & i wish my moods wldn be so affected by u =( Monday, May 19, 2008 drowned in a tsunami-a tsunami of memories. a series of flashbacks brought glimpses of t past to me tday. thought of how i was in np when i was in sec1, how i started to lose passion in sec2, the gone-case cadet i became in sec3 & finally now, t total loser in sec4 im wondering how i gna feel aft stepping down relieved? sad? i dno. i gna miss my sqdm8s but is "sqdm8s forever" true? at some points of time, we will forget wont we? how we used to be, how much we grown & e bonds we forged true we gna recall np life sometimes but things wldn be t same anymore yea? it gna be real hard for us to find time for one another as we move on in life maybe, it alrd gna happen when cca stops officially for yr4s & as we join other ccas damns. i dont want this to happen thought of how i used to be when i was in primary school compared how different i am now in conclusion, i gna be a total disaster in a matter of yrs. erm.. perhaps months & of coz, i thot of past relationships, crushes and all no comments on those. actually, plenty but well, they aint coming up here considering i did all these reflections when i was doing hsework, hwk & hanging out at westmall, it's pretty remarkable ^^ love, be mine tonight. i hate math cas' it makes me feel lk a total loser & tt's if i feel lk i wna care damnit x10... i cant do my assignment ah wdv. & as for phys pract, i really dno who to thank for llm wanting to collect it for checking + i had to lose t corrections i did previously at this point of tyme I FEEL LK CURSING OUT LOUD if school does not issue letters of warning etc at e SLIGHTEST offence, i gna just go lk " i aint interested so pls dont make me seem lk i am" seriously.. i just dowanna get into dumb trouble over dumb stuff lk phys i nida get into SHATEC and therefore t last thing i want will be a bad record damnx & to end off, CHIOUYIH! JY FOR UR FIRST DAY TMR! Saturday, May 17, 2008 a wake up call is needed. was supp to blog ytd but i fell aslp danggg and so besides not blogging, i cldn audi results were well.. sucky on t overall got evt back and left evt as they were rofl went cip with sqdm8s today! MAY's so hypocritical when she intro-ed this kindly facilitator for t programme today, i oh-so-nearly spoke tactlessly. thank god i didn May: this is aunty _______ who will be......yadayada Me: ok.. (she sounds so much nicer thn u) i NEARLY said tt luhh. luckily i stopped myself on time and oni say ok phew.. and damnit.. i sld have went for dinner with sqdm8s although it was at mac, it gna be so much btr thn me getting pissed off & muchmuchmuch tr thn some fked up family dinner thx to my dad just coz i informed him i sms-ed mrteo to say i gna drop phys he just kiked up a freaking big fuss bout e invalid pt tt he wasn consulted and he went lk got anth to mit t tchers next tyme just call mama, gonggong and mum go can le. lk wtf. not happy with me drag my mum and grandparents in for wad sia? he didn care in t first place. i talked to him, i told him. & HE IGNORED ME so why t hell is he saying so much now? lameness and being super gl, i suaned him lo lk it or not, tts my attitude enough of my ranting luhhs im sleepy & i hope i can dro phys coz even if i aint allow to, i wun study for it Thursday, May 15, 2008 hiding.. behind a mask school's seriously crappified at least for t uninterested me.. it's lk, i sms-ed for nearly t whole day instead of paying attention im getting sick of sms-ing alrd results were all less thn satisfactory & worse still, they are far from there randoming apart, i got seriously pissed off in t morning he's lk so oh-my-godly biased just coz my bro does not need to go to school today, he slept in instead of ensuring tt i was awake not tt i cant wake up on my own BUT DAMNIT! WHEN MY BRO HAS SCHOOL, HE WILL MAKE SURE I GET OUTTA BED SO MY BRO CAN USE T TOILET BY 630 WHETHER HE IS AWAKE OR NOT lk wtf? evt is done so tt my dear bro wun be late yea im jealous, & so what? anyway i had a mighty great time sleeping in and getting ready for school just slept past my usual time despite waking up on time took my own sweet time to get ready too sadly, i wasn late =( i dont mind a demerit or smth im using xiao tian shi as a cover up xiao tian shi is every bit too gd for victor yingting aint & xian tian shi does not emo she does not need him & didn i say ive alrd let go? freakk Wednesday, May 14, 2008 i suppose it's WHOOPING LAME school today was crap. got back results lo and as y'all noe, they suck. so yea, i aint very affected. maybe a lil disappointed but definitely not quite gna let them get me down went bugis with yih today it was funny how we ended up flipping tru t papers to find a job called a guy up and went for interview at Suntec & GRATS GAL! she gna start work next week! as for me, i gna have to c where tt guy gna put me hope i can cope=X before t job interview, we had fun taking photos of our reflection @ e toilet in Esplanade they turned out quite nice surprisingly & so, tt toilet gna be my fave HEEHEE but dang.. my hp cam sucks t pics are kinda blur but still nice.. Tuesday, May 13, 2008 t lil wishes^^ now tt my exams are officially over, yes i emphasize O-V-E-R i've got tyme to fantasize HAHA dere's so many things i want, so many things i wna do i wna... get a job & i wna.... party from nite to dawn=D i wna..... smile my spastic smile & mean it & i wna i wna.. =D went for dinner with sqddies just now im happyhappy! sqdm8s are love! dere was this grp of fked up idiots EWWW they are real.. I D I O T S ewwwewwwewwww.. Monday, May 12, 2008 with evt sorted out, i will wait no more yupps yingting's fine now >D thx to those who talked me outta this and cheered me up yupps Cassandra Cesty, ChiouYih, Jiaxin, Jocelyn,, Michelle Pan(Meishan), Pinyang, Weijun, Wenjie(Neo), Yiling, Yueting etcetc heh thx for cheering me up yea? kinda sorted out evt & thx guy for telling me t truth. tt u have nv known if u loved me. true i was pissed but well, at least i gna let go yea i cried aft u told me tht but i took it pretty well i suppose t cards told them all ^,^ -thx tarot- & U! tt pig who went to buy food late last nite u r missed! hohoho! hopefully u arent sneezing away now -evil laugh- phys paper gna be a breeze i assure u coz i didn study hehe not cause i had no mood but cause i didn even want to i think i gna just do what i can and thn try to smoke tru t whole thing hohoho! GONE CASE! Sunday, May 11, 2008 wow. this is my FOURTH or isit THIRD post of t day? hahas and it's gna be quizzes from.... PAN MEISHAN'S BLOG had nth btr to do so i kope-d them^^ TRIPLET, dont mind horh! Quiz 1 Message: I raped homo so i can save t earth!MONTH OF BIRTH jan. - I was raped by feb. - I butt-kicked mar. - I murdered apr. - I bathed with may.- I was tongue-kissed jun. - I have a crush on jul. - I pervertly touched aug. - I had sex with sept. - I bitch-fight with oct. - I raped nov. - I butt-licked dec. - I ate DAY OF BIRTH 1 - a maniac 2 - michael Jackson 3 - an alien 4 - an undentified creature 5 - a four-legged ostrich 6 - the air 7 - britney spears 8 - a gay 9 - homo 10 - elmo! 11 - Spongebob! 12 - Squidward 13 - spider man 14 - a lesbian 15 - a retarded frog 16 - a emo 17 - a freako 18 - my pillow 19 - my mother tongue teacher 20 - my dinner 21 - the wall 22 - my principal 23 - the toilet scrub 24 - my body 25 - a crazy spirit 26 - the unknown 27 - a corpse 28 - the water 29 - my pet rock 30 - my own self 31 - the president CLOTHES YOU ARE WEARING.. white - because my toilet light was dead. blue - because i want to sleep! black - because i'm feeling emo red - because the earth is round yellow - because i'm happy! :D orange- because i'm a human purple - because i have diarrea. brown - because my pet died! pink - because i feel like shiting green - because i cant find any underwear. gray - because my skin is itchy. maroon - because i want to be a maid. multi colour - so that i can save earth! Quiz 2 You know when your birthday is,but how old should you really be? [ ] I know how to make a pot of coffee. [ ] I can cook for myself. [ ] I think politics are exciting. [ ] My parents have better things to say than my friends. So far: 0 [ ] I show up for school/college/work every day early. [ ] I always carry a pen/pencil in my pocket/purse. [x] I've never gotten a detention [ ] I've watched talk shows. [x] i know what credibility means without looking it up. [ ] drink coffee at least once a week. So Far: 2 [ ] I know how to do the dishes. [x] I can count 1 to 10 in other languages. [x] When I say I'm going to do something I do it. [ ] My parents trust me. [ ] I can mow the lawn [ ] I can make adults laugh without being stupid [ ] I remember to water my plants. [x] I study when I have to. [ ] I pay attention at school/college. [ ] I remember to feed my pets. so far: 3 [x] I can spell experience without looking it up [x] I clean up my own mess. [ ] The first thing I do when I wake up is get caffeine. [x] I can go to the store without getting something I don't need. [x] I understand jokes the first time they are said. So far: 4 [ ] I have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour [ ] I have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job. [x] I can read a book and actually finish it. So Far: 1 Total (Mental Age): 10 wow.. im sure im more intel thn this =x Quiz 3 1. How are you today? - not very good 2. What pants are you wearing? - fbt shorts 3.What colour shirt are you wearing? - multi coloured( pink and green and white) 4.What movie did you watch? - none so far=( 5.What was the last thing you ate? - cherries 6.How is the weather right now? - cold 7.What time is it? - 2255 8.What are the last four digits of your hp no.? - 5618 9.If you were a crayon what color wouldyou be? - black 10.What makes you happy? - being with sqdm8s, lollipops, talking to NEOWENJIE(be honoured) 11.Who do you tell your dreams to? - my trustworthy teddy. sometymes my sqdm8s 12.At what time would you rob the bank? - im an honest kid, rite? 13.Who do you love? except yourfriends and relations. - victor goh, my tarot deck, softtoys 14. How is school? - ewwww.. one word says it all 15. Do you want to get married? - yes if love lasts Dream guy:Long or short hair? - as long as he looks nice... Curly or straight? - straight.definitely Tall or short? - erh, depends. taller den me if not forget it.around 162-175 favourite number? - HUH?! u mean u have one? Good boy or bad boy? - good and bad coexists=) cap or no cap? - wtf? the cap aint glued on lk HELLO?! Ears pierced or not? - ... Smart or dumb? - obviously of good intellectual level. Boxers or briefs? - both are fine. gotta c beyond those. ROFL Funny or romantic? - a mixture. i wun settle for a romantic bloke. neither wld i settle for a clown. i can find one at a circus if i wna c one Which finger is your favorite? - middle Do you like your handwriting? - noway! Any bad habits? - i dont think it's exactly a gd idea to start listing them. it gna take forever Do looks matter? - no but if it's my bf u're talking bout, yes. u noe wad im getting at. what are you thinking of right now? - memories of him what is the last thing someone said toyou? - call u in a while. (by NEOWENJIE!) And your reply? - ok. byebye! (somewhere along tt line) Quiz 4 1. What is more difficult: To let go everything or forget what happened? `both are equally challenging for now 2. Think of the last time you were angry. Why were you angry? `he was being such an ass 3. You will die in three minutes. Last call? `i will msn mass convo 4. If you could do anything OR wish anything, what would it be? `one mre chance to be his? 5. You can have one of the following two things: trust or love `half of each. heehee 6. Would you or have you ever blackmailed someone? `yea to both xD 7. Think of the last person whom you know. `dowan. -shudders- 8. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? `im alrd my best fren. HAHA 9. Would u sleep with someone if u had the chance? `yea pure sleeping( as in t zzz kind). nth more 10. Are you old fashioned? `depends 11. What would be harder for you, to tell someone you love them or that you do not love them back? `t latter. 12. What things would be the hardest thing for you to give up on? `love, sqdm8s, friends, family. anth related to emotions 13. Romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? `today 14. Imagine. It is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you? `victor goh 15. Would you give a homeless person CPR? `no. i dowanna murder him la 16. You are holding onto your grandmother.. `? 17. Do you tell anyone or everyone you are going to die? `not until t last min. i noe i kip telling ppl im dying but if i reallie am.. i will wait till thn 18. What do you do with your remaining days? i will dedicate letters to t ppl i love and try to change someone for t btr 19. Would you be afraid? `yea Quiz 5 ARE YOU: 1. Perfect: No 2. Tall: i wish i am 3. In your pajamas: No 4. Left handed: No LAST 1. Friend you saw: 4b ppl 2. Talked to on the phone: NEOWENJIEhaha! u again 3. Person to text you: Weijun 4. Was today better than yesterday: yea FAVORITE: 1. Number: - 2. Color: pink. white and black aint colours 3. Food: i dont lk food 4. Place: erh.. i dno QUESTIONS & ANSWERS: Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?:check hp Q: Do you have anything bothering you?: yea Q: What's the last movie you watchedin theaters?: 10000 bc Q: Where is the last place you went?: some weird restaurant for dinner Q. Do you smile a lot?: YEA=D Q: Do you wish upon stars?: yupps Q: Are you a friendly person?: it depends on who im with Q: Where did you sleep last night?: in my room Q: Why did you sleep there?: ive always slept dere unless im away frm home Q: When was the last time you cried?: just now Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep last night?: if it's worth it.. Q: Rate life as of right now, onebeing bad ten being great?: 4.5 Q: What do you hear right now?: san ge xin yuan-fir Q: Does anything hurt right now?: yea Q: What's your favorite month?: NOV! t start of hols! TEN EMOTIONS: 1. Are you missing someone right now?: yea 8. Are you tired?: no 001. Real name? : YINGTING 002 Birthday? : o91o92 003. Eye color? : dark dark brown 004. Zodiac sign?: Libra 005. Male or female? : Female. 006. Single? : yeps 007. Crushing?: nah. loving. haha 009. Smart? : no 010. Hair color? : brownish-black 011. Long or short? : 013. Sweats or Jeans? : Jeans 014. Phone or Camera? : Phone. DURH 015. Health freak? : nopes 021. Righty or lefty? : righty! FIRSTS: 024. First best friend?: ?! 025. First award?: p2 026. First enemy? : how i rmb.. if i hate tt person, i dont bother 027. First pet? : goldfish 028. First vacation? : US CURRENTLY: 049. Eating? : nah 050. Drinking? : nah 052. I'm about to? : slp 053. Listening to? : san ge xin yuan 054. Plans for today? : slp 055. Waiting for? : t end of this WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER: 068. Lips or eyes? : eyes(: 070. Shorter or taller? : taller. LK DURH 072. Romantic or spontaneous? both. not too much of either 074. Sensitive or loud? : Sensitive 075. Hook-up or relationship?: relationship HAVE YOU EVER: 079. Drank bubbles? : ewww? 080. Lost glasses/contacts? : nah! 081. Ran away from home? : nopes. im a gd gal! xp 084. Broken someone's heart? : yea 085. Been arrested? : NO ANSWER TRUTHFULLY: 097. Do you like someone? : yes. i lk nearly everyone 098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? : rv? NO even for a million bucks 100. YAY YOU MADE IT (: : finally.. i missing u again. real bad. these cards, they told t story & answered my qns.  i will let go of any hopes of getting back tgt with u coz we werent meant to be but if u r willing to, i wldn mind being with u once again even if it aint gna last for a long tyme im gna be speaking alien in this post. u saw it, he just aint worth it a guy who's worth everything wldn make u cry yea? he's such an ass even u got pissed off u said forget it, rmb? so just let go do what u said. dont go crying over this jerk anymore move on, girl im still living in memories, trying to appear unaffected trying so damn hard to fulfil tt promise to myself yea, he was such an ass i just said forget it i said i dont need a guailan bf but deep down, i noe im needing every bit of him i cant let go i cant stop crying it's pathetic to be living in memories but at t very least, we were tgt in them at least in them, i had him if only u wld fking get how impt u r to me if only u wld think more abt everything i noe u understood what i meant, always it's just tt u refuse to get it u just didn want to coz if u did, u wldn have said those things im back to staring at ur foto i wish my tarot deck wld tell me more just came back frm family dinner rofl i was stuffed with food shall diet tmr or wise i gna roll down inclined surfaces soon D: i just allowed him to make me cry again pls unbreak my heart i really dowanna let u go if only u wld realise how much i need you Saturday, May 10, 2008 #1 1. You're a girl, right? hello? 2. Have you kissed any one? yes=X 4. Do you enjoy drama? im unaware abt them most of the tyme, be it in real life or tv 5. Are you a girly girl? yes? ask my sqdm8s, they know btr 6. Who was the last person you hugged? SQDM8! 7. Small or large purses? small 8. Who was the last person you texted? Weijun 9. Do you like someone? i lk everyone=D of coz except fat ppl. sounds bitchy but im a fattist 10. where's # 10?? -.- 11. Do you care if your socks are dirty? YES 12. Do you think you’re conceited? erh..wad do u think? 13. Do you dress up on halloween? NO DURH. i aint a kid 14. Are you double jointed? ?? i noe everyone has joints but what's tt?! 15. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? in the parade square while falling in 17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you? tt im a bitch? yes i do think so 18. Do you call anybody by their last name? yes,isn it normal to do so? 19. How many guys will read this? it's none of my business actually.. mark out what applies to yourself: [.] I do wear make up [.] I have cried at a movie theater. [.]I can't put mascara on without opening my mouth. [.] I get jealous. [.] I think Johnny Depp is sexy. [.] I love to laugh. [ ] i like metal. [ ] i like rap. [ ] i like techno. [ ] i like country. [.] I carry a purse. [ ] I’d be lost without my computer. [ ] I own a Spice Girls CD. [ ] i own a Britney Spears CD. [ ] I own a boy band CD. [.] I get bored watching football. [ ] I’ve never been called a spoiledbrat [.] Guys are confusing [.] I’ve been called a bad influence. [.] My [ ]I have a piercing other than my ears. SMILE ;D im grinning to myself lk how i used to t craziness tt i cant control im feeling lame now eeewww yingting's such a looney as always.. & MICHELLE PAN! ur dear retarded triplet will try to organise class outing de! thx for t suanning horh wad OUR DEAR CHAIRPERSON FINALLY HAS SOME INITIATIVE so not lemon.. TSK Friday, May 09, 2008 learn to pick yourself up, girl! it's over with t crying and stuff he wun come back you wont ask him so just get on hahas enough of crying over t break up i guess tt guy's irreplaceable for now but it's simply a matter of time was toying with t idea of msging him to ask him for a patch up yet again, y subject myself to more hurt? when he doesn even bother replying, or when things were just lk in t past when we were tgt yingting's too precious for this i dno all these just dawned on me when i was crying while thinking of him coz the person i was msging was hanging out with him & they gna stay tgt tru t nite somehow i just realised not everything i want will work out i supp i hope i can keep up with this and let go ^.^ i want tt cheerful smile back jk yea? today's t official last day of exams for rvians(; but i still got 3 mre papers to go meaning, i cant go for class outing tmr mum hung up on me when i called to tell her i gna go vivo with classm8s it was pure shyt so what if at least be grateful i tried studying & thank t stars i bothered doing t paper it wasn my wasn my fault i didn study well i hadn wanted tt awful emotional breakdown ytd did i? Nvms hanging out with t remaining 15 ppl was fun tho it lasted oni 2 hrs plus & most of t tyme was spent at mac & despite t goddamn embarrassing incident i aint obliged to reveal my lovely ancesty! thx for offering t help=] love ya lots dont forget our shopping date! i will be lk u i will cheer up but not forget him^^ hope sqddies are having fun now wherever they are. they've studied hard & deserve a nice break btw, our secONEs are noob they successfully made it to t pages of thenewpaper for the IU day pencil incident HOW ON EARTH AM I LK GNA WEAR MY SCHOOL U AND FEEL OK? [i wun say proud of it coz i was nv proud of t school] but OMG at least dont make me feel worse donning t uniform luhhs seriously, i see no point in my own image being tainted coz of t school reputation i mean, i nv felt lk i belonged in t first place rites? nvms! i shall just not wear my sch badge when i go out lk i usually do in t first place -,- Thursday, May 08, 2008 it's still you yea. i blocked u & put ur pic as my dp no i didn do it for fun i did it so i cld just look at tt funny look of urs tt nv failed to make me laugh yet i ended up crying while studying for maths i reallie miss every bit of u ur voice, everything i cant stop thinking of all the silly conversations we had flashbacks keep occuring at the weirdest moments-when im studying, doing my papers, eating etc i dont exactly think of u all the time but from time to time i will i dowanna cry over this but i reallie cant help it Sry. i love u, still smashed one word describes t state of my poor lil brain tried too hard to cramp evt biological into t limited (memory)space and yea.. it overloaded D: it got too heavy and fell out alrigths enough of my lameness didn think it's funny as well but i dont really think my brain exists now coz.. I CANT RMB ANTH! hahas. maths. maths! maths? MATHS?! i gna fail it anyway class alrd has 1 person who failed t first math paper i bet it gna be me thx a million for t info coz i dont c a point in studying anymre i mean lk cmon! if ONE person failed math in my class, it obviously gna be ME rites? yea, damn right. wooyt! the mac post gna wait! my brain's as blocked as my nose i dno y but im thinking of u still Wednesday, May 07, 2008 tmr's our supposed 2nd week rmb? hahas i doubt u even knew but nvms i still love u(: i dno y i kip appearing as tho i can do w/o tho for now, i obviously cant im sure i will be able to look back at the 13days one day and smile at how silly we both have been, trying t impossible we're just too different & we knew it tt was wad made us both feel so insecure perhaps i haven loved u enough i was afraid of getting hurt and so i held back i think it's the same for u too. if u had really cared. ytd when u sent tt msg using his hp, i had so much more to say thn just t one word reply i gave i wanted to know y though i alrd knew it & i wanted to tell u i love you still if only u had t courage to use ur own hp instead.. maybe u were afraid tt i wldn let go but if u knew me enough, u wld have known i wldn do tt & pinyang, i was just acting lk i didn care coz i didn want u to tell anyone else how i reacted. i didn want u to tell him, at t very least. u just aint part of t whole thing. even if u think im an unfeeling bitch, i dont care xin sui de sheng yin shi ting bu dao de Tuesday, May 06, 2008 it's over-finally? hahas. kinda confused now. i dno whether to cry or not just kept telling myself he aint worth it, knowing tt he's worth everything yingting's strong yupps i'll be fine aft crying. saw this somewhere "dont cry coz it's over. smile becoz it happened" yupps. smile coz it happend. im just gna do that DAMNIT. i missed school today so i freaking have to take my papers on mon. WTFWTFWTFWTF -ok wooyt. dont kill me- phys paper tmr. haha. 13 topics i aint gna study for it. i will just do my bio i mean lk HELLO.. phys.. no matter how much effort i spend, i wldn pass so yea.. i might as well try scraping for a pass in bio tmr's gna be lk write my name on the paper, c what i can do, slp at least most lkly it gna be lk tt had a massive quarrel with him ytd nite ended with himm going IF U NOT HAPPY THEN BREAK LA and thn he went offline wtf. this tyme, i aint gna say it's my fault coz if im guailan, he isn any btr this tyme, he sld seriously get a life just because he doesn treasure me does not mean tt noone wants to in fact, there are ppl who are willing to take his place yea true i gna cry if he dumps me, but i gna be fine ive got my sqdm8s, my gan-family etcetc basically he just has to get t point tt i can do without him in fact, i gna do so much btr im letting go bit by bit soon it aint gna hurt anymore i will quit hugging on to my teddy at nite and crying =D he just aint worth it Monday, May 05, 2008 it's pathetic how others are there for me more often thn you you said u care you said u are serious so pls show tt u mean it i tried very hard to believe you i wanted to trust you but it seems tt i cant it's lk.. where r u when i was in tears? d'you even bother abt how much i need you when im really all stressed up? i wldn believe you if u said yes yet i wld just accept ur ans it sucks how im kept going only by the lil memories the bits and pieces of various conversations we had yea sure u get jealous when i talk to other guys etc but what have u done to keep me from getting close with them? ignoring me? wow. whenever im down, they are the ones who try their very best to cheer me up. you? "shut up" what rights do you have thn? fk. i really dont know what i see in you maths & ss(geog) day dont think i needa repeat but consistency brings abt awareness rite? [c still rmb my ss geog stuff] THEY SUCK maths.. yadayadayada.. needless to say it's a goner(: & i aint grieving over it i just gna admit tt i was scolding the f-word truout t whole paper ss geog total wowness. i wrote till i nearly cried and did not complete anyway the crying part was coz my hand was damn tired lk durh yingting nv rushes for time during exams it's either u complete or u dont so wads with t rushing?-,- anyway it was sheer madness trying to complete 2 qns 1ai, aii, bi, bii, biii, biv, ci, cii at was nearly the same for qn2 no comments abt how i did/ gna do for this paper coz as y'all noe, IT'S SCREWED UP by itself, not me i dont even wna screw it & im finally reminded tt i haven started for chem im sleepy luhhs. & im lazy + i dont have t mood damnit. can i not study? freak no. the only gd thing tt happend today was t in-bus entertainment but this looney old guy who kept acting beng & his acting sucks to t core. i was trying so freaking hard not to laugh yea i noe it aint rite to laughed at pple, but some ppl r just meant to be laughed at he is as cool as the dustbin in the bus interchange ugh. unappealing. totally.. & im missing u Sunday, May 04, 2008 seriously, i hate exams & i dont c t reason y i ought to study lk sounds dumb studying FOR exams when i HATE exams. lameness.. im counting down to fri i the most i'll just cry over it and promise myself to study harder....... and thn break tt promise again ROFL im nutters >D & im proud of it i miss tt guy i dno wads wrong with me he said he's serious & tt was enough yea, i asked for a break up but no, i didn mean it freakk. & shortly aft, we quarrelled -,- iloveyou uh okayys.. i suppose my tongue piercing fantasy aint gna come true pple were lk asking me if i were serious OBVIOUSLY I AM i was even thinking of how nice it gna be if my tongue's lk a serpent's >D happiness.. it's just tt my momma aint gna allow it even if i hit GPA3(impossible) [uh. if i gotta get gpa3 to pierce my tongue, i rather not] but anyway i thot it tru.. im sure guys dont lk some foreign object "obstacle" when kissing rites? rofl & i think the guy gna freak out kissing a serpent-gal maybe not a serpent gal but a gal with a forked tongue -though i kinda lk the idea- =X i think im looney damns.. i gna be thinking of nose piercings etcetc next NOOOOOOOOOO! i dowanna pierce my face. not tt it aint ugly enuf.. grrrrr Saturday, May 03, 2008 i cant be bothered anymore i just wasn good enough in the first place we just wanted to try & tries can fail yea? =) i thot i aint gna cry but -,- LAMELAMELAME damnit.. anyone has carbon monoxide? i wna die PINK-loves- Friday, May 02, 2008 today was total insanity nt to mention ur's truly screwed up big time didn manage to finish chinese essay coz of a good 3mins spent on smth unrelated pretty pissed off with myself for letting my thoughts wander even at such a crucial point of time but well, didn i say? i give up english essay isnt anymuch btr. i only wrote tt topic coz it's the only thing i "know" hoe to write i just stared at the paper and stoned. oh damn it. forget it.. im good for nth, a total loser as a gf im seriously wondering how long more i can stand this there's just nth to hold on to anymore. money issues. somehow things have just become so weird i dno how to put it i aint tt kinda person who can survive with just enough cash face it, tts me. i need a job real bad first to keep up with my life and also to save my aim? SHATEC & im seriously bitchy hahas. just bitched some bohliao ppl on joc's tagboard idiots nth btr to do go disturb her actually i didn do much la. i merely implied that the are of low intellectual calibre. nth overboard to me cld have done btr FREAK. wads becoming of me? Thursday, May 01, 2008 and F. yea. urs sincerely just got a nail cut. freakk. i so totally regretted cutting my nails simply coz i broke the one on my middle finger. damns. over-used la =X & im sounding lk a total bimbo freakk.. BUT I LOVE MY NAILS! & im so missing them tho others hate them & I WAS TOTALLY NEAR TEARS WHEN I HAD TO CUT THEM OFF COZ THEY JUST LOOK WEIRD w/o THE NICE LONG MIDDLE FINGER NAIL 5mm to less thn 1mm long. Fk. |
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