nth worth believing in

tired out.
fell aslp in front of th comp while at free access lab.
embarrassing even if it's for 15mins.
anw, econs is near completion at least if dere isnt any other complications.
1 more proj down(:

cant say ive been a good gal to have skipped POM tutorial.
it just isnt good to skip tutorials when im alr on th brink of a D grade, maybe worse.
quite alot of peeps left after Aizsa and i went off.
wonder what t tcher gna say next week.
but still, i guess it was a pretty good choice or i doubt i gna be able to slp till 4am tmr just to complete assignments as well. fwaks.

im srsly stressed up tho i guess it cant be seen from my supposed carefree attitude.
it's just too bad im th kind who dont stress myself yet suffer from random bouts of "panic attacks"
geez. sucks to be me.

oh anw,
Happy 3rd Mth, precious(:

back to braving th sea of school stuffs.
pls throw me a buoy so i wun drown

(10:38 PM) LEARN FROM YESTE: hi yingting
(10:39 PM) yting.: bye
(10:40 PM) LEARN FROM YESTE: i am care enough to say hi to u
dun give me that attitude
i nvr offend u girl
(10:40 PM) LEARN FROM YESTE: wake ur idea up girl
(10:42 PM) yting.: my ideas aint aslp ^^ work on ur english dude
(10:42 PM) LEARN FROM YESTE: wake ur fucking idea up
nbcb
(10:42 PM) LEARN FROM YESTE: i am talking properly rite
dun try to stir me cause u got bad mood
(10:43 PM) yting.: ohmigodd
wtf was tt fking sentence supp to freaking mean lors
(10:43 PM) LEARN FROM YESTE: tot ur english
i telling u tis
u are totally fuck up girl

ive got 1 thing to make clear. tt guy's GOHYIDA.
meaning?
simple.. meaning i was alr being nice saying BYE to him instead of venting my anger on him since he isnt one of my favourites on earth.
in fact, i think he's th most disliked. i wld rather talk to an amoeba, thankyou very much.

anw, a retard wld say bye when u say bye to him. clear indication of no intentions to continue th convo. i mean.. common sense pls. lose some lipids. gain some neurons.
im not even asking for intelligence(:

and since he decided to continue.. well.. he flared up first.
was kinda pissed but notheless interested to see how th convo will go ^^
afterall, i miss laughing AT him. it's been so long since he last provoked me.
and..

(10:42 PM) LEARN FROM YESTE: i am talking properly rite
dun try to stir me cause u got bad mood
(10:43 PM) yting.: ohmigodd
wtf was tt fking sentence supp to freaking mean lors

look at his idea of talking properly. explains y i replied oh-so-properly.
xD
and sry mister. ive got no intentions of stiring u even if it's stir-frying. i think th amt of oil gna cause some large-scale destruction.

pretty funny how he signed out/ blocked me/ wdv aft telling me tt im fked up.
wellwell.
-big L on forehead-
but still, smart move coz i think past exp of bad convos w me have taught him to scram when it's obvious who gna run outta ideas on how to retaliate.
perhaps he alr did(:

my mood's btr.
off to econs again

im so sorry-not for th meaness.
it isnt my fault he's stupid to ruin my alr bad mood since he noes im put off by him.
made tt clear in many past convos alr.

a post at 0241 hrs.
tearstreaked face.

for acting lk u trusted me, thankyou so much for ur efforts.
i guess wad hurts, is tt i always thot u were diff from th others.
yet,
yt=lying bitch= cant be trusted. fact tt nv changed, nv will change.

nv did realise it cld hurt so much.
nv did realise uve nv really trusted me.

dere u go abt "nvm what others say. we wont get affected" and stuffs lk tt
and here u are disappointing me coz u got disappointed in me over what u heard from others.

always thot we were better thn this.
guess i was wrong afterall.

am i entitled to being upset/disappointed tt u lied abt believing in me?
perhaps not. it was just be being stupid all th while, trying so hard when u merely judge from what u hear from others.

& lastly, thx for th tears tonight

it sucks having tests on 2 consequetive days and having projs to be done in a single week.
& it's esp so when i haven't got th mood/motivation to do anth at all.

wish me luck for th bumpy academic life ahead.
dont forget to congratulate me on my sucky results too.

im missing u real bad im so close to crying alr.

i haven updated for such a looooong time x.x
i think my boy's deprived of my posts with short "dedications" to him
shall be nice and post smth thn!

been on some proj-cum-slacking sessions, a nerve wrecking presentation & of coz, loads of lack-of-slp + late for lessons days
tho i app to be slping alot, it's an average of 4.5hrs a day.
sooo lacking of slp=(
i want this busy-ness to be over soon..

missing my dearest a whole load.
somehow, days seem to past kinda fast but still, it's ages before they gna be back & i dont lk it.
tt silly boy has been trying to make me engage in silly squabbles with him xD
so fun! tho he always wins. eew!
& guess wad.. he gift-ed me a pair of handcuffs on tagged. supposedly meaningful uh!

bii.. im missing u so much i even miss th times ure such an ass [HAHA] refusing to let me slp when i sooo tired until u have enough of disturbing my "rest".
rmb uh.. cannot anyhow coz ure MINE alr xDD [or is it th other way round?]

let him down, again.

first formal presentation tday.
good job peeps=) on proj down
but no thx to weijie fot "shooting" budiman's grp last week xD
we totally got owned by their questions. awww.
& i was such a nervous idiot my legs were trembling.
fweaks.

more projs due, more presentations & more tests.
wonder when it gna end, when i can finally take a real break.
nt showing it but im tired, really.
time's crawling. yet, 24hrs a day doesnt seem to be enough.
& while complaining abt nt enough tyme, im not even trying to manage it.
last min rushes sucks but time seem to go faster(:
i just want th 4mths to be over. want him back by my side.

pictures up tmr. my babyboy has th honour of seeing them first other thn those who visit my fb acc.

hellooooos~
i totally fell aslp last nite, lights on and all.
luckily my lappy was running on batt which died before i was found out by i think.. my dad-.-
phews..

ytd:
woke up for rht [it's still screwed anw..]
headed to marina sq to meet pingping xD
im alwaays so horrendously late. SRY!!
& i got to know abt my dearest bf's unbelievable [i dont know blurness or dumbness]
that kinda comment oso can say. WIN LE LOR!

ty pingping for th concealer & helping me w th prepaid stuffs ^.^
<333
tc of urself k?
tho it's seems suuper tough dere, dey gna be ok de.
plus got zamzam & ibrahim dere [no, wee.. dont have ur name coz i think u lk their lil bro lk tt waiting to be tc-ed of! WAKAKAS!]
& thx i, rw & z for taking care of tt monkeey boyboy uh!
sometimes, make him grow up xD soooo grateful to u all~

met momok aft tt.
my legs were breaking from th blisters my dumb heels gave me.
made her shop arnd w me for another pair of heels coz i wanted to get used to wearing them before i wear them to school tmr>.<
i was surprisingly fussy given th situation
ended up buying sandals coz i totally bth alr
wakaka! poor momok's always th unfortunate victim of my fussy shopping loL!

called bii several tymes ytd.[momok complained to him]

tt meano boy horh...

me: bii, if i 搞外遇[i dno how to write laa] how?
him: lk that lor. lk wad can i do?

so 舍得one sia..

webcam-ed with him thx to rw's lappy & cammy
damn funny coz both sides were laggy lk mad. maybe sld try ovoo next time!
xP
zamzam was being a monkey in th background.
made me laugh lol!
& my bii keep smiling his monkey smile [that 歉打one xD]
two monkeys.. only rw was acting normal.nv c i at all
pingping can dun so worried le. rw is normal unlike monkeys^^
& im sure zamzam will go back to normal.
while my bii.. TSK
no wonder she always say monkey 长不大～

heehee!
cant imagine bii's face when reading this.
sure get wlau-ed by him when i call him de lor!
*misses*

off to do my work now.
facial ltr=(
saddening. i wna change blogskin!

im missing u loads and u know i haven lost it yet(:
dearest, im missing u soo much>.<

kinda moody coz im super tired but got loads of stuffs to do.
& th silly boy's unhappy dere
worried abt th bunch of guys>.<
sigh..

out w pingping aft school
bought prepaids and call back cards alr
card tmr xD

i wish they gna be ok.
hopefully they can tc of themselves well.
sigh.. i cant stop worrying>(

to pingping:
thx for looking after mexD cheerups k? we gna be ok tgt de^^ & true.. cant count down by days.. hmmm... ehh.. u must tc horh! see ar.. if u always sad = emo =nv rest enuf! so must cheer up. den rest enough = got slp well = 美美 xDD

我又在讲鸟话了 xP

currently attempting to get rht done at kerry's house.
superbly slpy but i dno y.
i slept loads alr>.<
but still, i swear i gna fall aslp AGAIN.

this is bad..
ive got loads of stuffs t do
this is badder
i look totally cui from th lack of slp but dere's nth i can do
this is th WORST
i got fatter. im sooo gna slim down no matter what.

a confession and some peektures before i go off.
bii, im so sry i was unfaithful ytd hours after u left >.<
i frenched with...

NICOLE! tt cheeky gal stuck her tongue into my mouth to licklick when i wanted to take photo with her xP [imagines bii's -.- face]
& so..
i went for her bf TORO

see! he loves me. we 手拉手xD soooo sweet rite? biibii dun jealous horh!

tired D:
i want bii to hug to me slp..
wonder what he's doing now. sign..

Looking forward to tmr(:
1day sooner to them coming back.
& hours more before i get my prepaid ^.^

called dearest ytd.
tt dumbdumb didn noe it was me >(
[this is soooo punishable]
talked for awhile with him nagging at me to tc & call only when i got my prepaid & me nagging at him to "btr rmb to tc of himself"
*misses*
attempted doing proj aft tt but i was barely awake >.<

tt silly msged me this morning complaining abt life dere.
eew! it's only one day lehh!
wondering if it's coz he doesnt have his games/ have to do his stuffs by himself.
my dearest's such a 少爷 sometymes. rawrr..
nvms! bii jy k? try getting used to it & it gna be fine alr(: u gna be coming back soon yea?^^

silly me. i guess th fact tt i wldn be seeing him for th next 4mths plus hasnt quite kicked in, yet.

texting him, nearly attempting to call him coz i miss him.
even heading straight to c if he's online th moment i signed into ebuddy.
cmon.. he's still on th plane.

im feeling stupid.
srsly.. 4mths gna be over soon(:
yet, it's a freaking 124days(+++) & soooo much can happen..
D:

i want u back. Now-.-

*edit*
bii just called(: but he sounds so sian diao.. hmmm=(
sadded

looking forward to the coming months.
yupps peepo(: dere's nth wrong w ur eyesight.
YINGTING IS LOOKING FORWARD TO TH NEXT 4MTHS. even w/o her dearest by her side.
coz it gna be over soon & he gna be back xD

& really, thankyouuuuu momok & kerry(:
esp momok who got nagged by dearest to nag at me.
keep msging me to cheer me up xDD
& kerry for her concern.
lovelovelove^^
[bii.. got ppl sharing love with u le leh! xP]

currently in free access labs coz i dumbly overslept on th bus from th airport and got tooo late for lecture.
kinda cold now from walking in th rain when i was in some super-near-punggol area.
trying to imagine bii's reaction when he reads th text i sent him. LOL
tt dumbo of mine btr tc. <-JAMESWEE! U SEE IT UH!

hmms..
so srsly gna miss bii..rawr..
tt meano.. no hugs for me when i hugged him lor.
eediot.
want me miss u also noneed lk tt ma!
his shirt got traces of foundation on it coz i cried on his shoulder.
applied it coz i looked lk a ghostie when i woke up. LALAS TOO BAD

& wee's mum's super cute larhs!
his sis also super hyper today xD
they were lk reminding him to think before he talk so he wun offend ppl.
连我都没想到lorh..
& th stupidest thing was tt i started crying aft his sis said smth lk 去四个月而以就哭到这样，去四年怎么办?
zZ
bii.. sry for crying tho i said+promised not to>(

gna try my bestest to stop crying alr coz i promised [to try my best not to].
but bii.. even if i cry u btr keep ur promise to tc of urself AND come back for me.
PLUS our promise horhh..
xD

说真的，抱着你时我根本不想放开。
记得小心，一定要好好照顾自己k?
& u noe i dont mean it abt having manymany guys to tc of me right?
knowing u love me + having stitchie&teddy as you is enough le xD

rht's confusing me.
no mood to listen too.
zZ
so dumbb=(

*edit*
& commsks' finally over.
school ended xD

projprojproj..!

i wish i cld i really not care lk how im appearing.
wdv

goodnight everyone.
*edit*

guess i wldn be seeing dearest until wed at th airport.
sucks.
im so fking dreading it.
feel lk throwing tantrums but well.. time to act lk a big gal.
hope i gna be able to keep up w it.
not another ytd, hopefully..
time to prepare for school alr.
*edit*
虽然我一直说自己不会哭, 但是现在的我并不能确定这件事了.
真的有点舍不得. 不.. 不是有点而是非常舍不得让你走. >.<

cried ytd when danna said he aint gna have time for me these few days.
guess i did real well pretending tt it gna be alright.
sorry.. just want u to conc on ur stuffs for now.

out w pingping ytd.
gotta thank her for acc-ing & helping me while i got bii's stuffs xD

headed tbplaza after tt.
was emoing lk some kuku over idk what.
im sorry baby.. i guess im just scared coz i dont wna lose u.
u promised(: & i wna believe in it, in u.
idk what got into me. sorry..

oh.. & my precious boy finally got to packing.
goodboy(:

what i gna give u's so spastic im having second thots alr..
u sure u want it?

awesome.

ytd- we went to sch0ol for NOTHING.
labs close at 1. and we started at 12plus only to be told abt tt awhile ltr.
wow. projs= undone, yet.
headed to tamplibrary for a bi of research and decision making for f&b proj & thn safra w Kerry.

i finally saw my dearest play tho k&i were laughing at th mini field. c too, when she came
looks pretty spastic w grown up guys xD
heck. i love th way my bii looks tho kerry thot he's either malay or mixed.

oh yea... im starting to have doubts abt dearest's sexuality.
C&i were o,O-ed and laughing at some gay acts.
2 grown up guys... im getting kinda jealous. awww!

abit of shopping & cafecartel after tt w c while someone went drinking.
got me kinda worried >(
eews.
& im such a good gal waiting up until he got home.
[heehs..]

lalas!
on a random sidenote, i think im going nuts.
im lk changing my mind abt not having kids.
OMGGGG..
& it's all after watching th kids play soccer ytd.
so CUTE!

a brief high before goodnight(:

updates:
thurs- school,dinner w precious at gwc, slacking arnd at th staircase lk wad we used to do xD, breakfast delivery to grandparents' hse & finally, Homed
thx bii for accompanying me. loves!

[fell aslp. cont]
attempted doing f&b menu evaluation but ended up falling aslp at 2plus
woke up at 4 to complete it.
slept from 5-6.
no wonder i wasnt conc during ec tday x.x

today was fun xDD
short lessons followed by shopping& lunch w shirley & shopping with kerry.
thx shirleyly for accompanying me while wating for kerry
K&i stayed in NUM(citylink) for lk 1hrs+++ coz she cldn decide
in th end we headed heerens.

yting's a happy gal today.
slippers w my darling boy [got him blue &myself red. rofl]
hopes bii really lks them.

*hugs*
4mre days..

smile coz evt's alright & gna be alright
& smile coz th love exists & always will(:

thx bii, for all th sweet msgs before u oinked off
& thx for helping me w. th research for my work xD
ahwells.. thx for always being dere afterall.

i cant believe a paper jam triggered tears i held back with so much effort.
so stupidd.
eew..

godzillions stuff running tru my mind now
6days,projs,_______,coming tests,yting's fked up attitude,$$,floorball,current stuffs,rs etcetc..
i think im going nuts soon.

& oh yes.. i rmb smth... hmmmm...
#1 someone sending me to school?
#2 havaianas [tell me we still gna buy tgt uh!]
#3 KFC with someone [i get jealous one horhh... eat w frens den lazy to eat w me]
blahblahblah...

& i rmb someone said he gna be back for me(:
think im th happiest gal alr xD
no more crying alr.
@least for tonite..

muscle relaxants/fever pills to get me to slp.
goodnights

yoohs(:
im back to UPDATE!
currently in th library about to do my work.
actually, ive been "abt to do my work" for nearly an hour alr xD

wonder why i aint in sch?
im simply slacking off lectures;D
still, im a good gal alrights?

had a talk w gf ytd.
THX LOVE, for being dere for me(:
<3
we really gotta go out even for awhile!

& to my beloved boy whose first visit to changi airport via mrt was ytd,
CONGRATULATIONS
i decided not to blog much abt th eh,SKYTRAIN! and WOW incidents.
see im sooo nice to u!
love me more(:

oh yea.. we were dere coz i had to get my surveys done and i forced him along.
^.^
im a scary gf to have. HOHOHO

just back from belated fathers' day bbq.
3/4 dead and yet not intending to slp yet.
this is bad coz im babbling nonsense to my baby boy.
i dont practice self-censorship when im talking with my brain cells aslp.
evt just comes out aligned with my thoughts so yea..
dont take anth to heart(:

met sherlyn ytd @ ps.
shopped for th last min gifts and headed to aunt's house for gift making.
our works:

photoframe by lyn & cup by me xD
dont know y i cant rotate th pic over here. eew..

anw i was left pretty much alone for th day so well..
was self-entertaining and msging with random peeps.
oh yea..
th weird fruits we had amused me too(:

huge strawberries & twin cherries for me xD

oh yea..
fat yting at th end of th day. eew=(

meeting cousin Sherlyn at tm ltr to collect th stuffs for th bbq.
im so absolutely drained of my energy alr>.<
fell aslp unknowingly last nite while emoing. tsk!
coincidentally, wj called and i was lk.. " wake me up in 10 mins uh!"
*10mins ltr*
"give me another 5mins"
and i didn wake up XP

&so, SORRY FOR KEEPING U PEEPS WAITING FOR MY REPLY!
xDD

ytd after school hours were spent at far east w/ shirley
she had to buy her shoes for presentation & it took lk 3hrs plus for her to choose them lol!
momok came at arnd 8.
left awhile ltr for tbplaza's KFC.

no Banditto pockets left=(
=sad girls..

oh ya! melvinlim was at far east ytd too!
& i saw aaron but didn notice him.
ROFL. didn realise we were in th same place until ltr on.
MELVIN AR.. NO FATE TO SEE ME LUHH! xDD

im a happy gal when i woke up today coz i saw th msg bii left online.
made me laugh lol! SO NOW U NOE HOW MUCH I MISS YOU!
this is wad he said
"bii sry for late reply.. was packing stuff for my medical check up.. zzz now sneezing away.. stop missing me idiot haha"

BUT! tt DUMBASS called me an idiot. EEW!

gna change my nail polish colour before i go out.
& so, BYEBYE!

weewee.. come for bbq leh.. yting misses u=(

im going nuts coz im missing u soooo much.

been thinking alot since 2 days ago.
12 mre days. & on th 13th u gna be flying off alr.
it sucks knowing tt we aint gna get to see each other until aaaaaages ltr.
dont know if u gna tc of urself well. wonder how u gna cope.
dont know wad i gna do. wonder who i gna go run crying to.
shucks.

u said+promised nth gna change.
i know i sld & i wna believe it but they said th same too.
really, im scared.

& scared+worried+...= tears
dun worry, coz im holding them back well(:
been having weird dreams. cant rmb what theyre abt but they aint good.
knowing tt u feature in them but not being able to recall what happened exactly's freaking me out lots.

baby, tell me again..
will u still be mine months ltr?
coz im gna be urs for as long as u want me. maybe even longer.

heya~ i just killed myself.
super tired now. test still not studied well.
but still...
xD even if i fail/do bady, i still gna be ok w it.

went out w Riwei&Sally plus bii today
movie-ed before cafe cartel at plazasing
i actually scared pingping @ th beginning xD sry uhs!
bii & i were shivering too. while he was telling me "chill lar.." in th midst of laughing at th parts tt kinda freaked me out. eew!
hmm..

im super tired i dno wad to blog.
first movie w my precious. & im so not gna watch any mre horrors w him.

ps/ i was kidding. xD
mre hugs pls!

pps/ i so hate th once-a-mth affair.currently in some curled up position frm th pain. fks.

hello(: it's 0138hrs now
HAPPYBDAY KERRYdajie xDD

really can stand it no longer..
super tired.
was trying to get rht questionaire finalised + study abit since im going out ltr
F&b quiz tmr.
& while im rushing, my aunt had to drag on a discussion for th belated fathers' day celebration.
WTF. it's lk LATE. ive got my own commitments+school, my cousin work.
we're not lk SOMEONE out dere who owns her own business and can be later uh?
we cant telecomute to work/school can we?

angry also coz this whole thing was her idea.
we didn consent but was dragged in. wow.. just becoz we aint 20+/30 yrs old doesnt mean tt we are free either.
*rolls eyes

read PP's blog ytd evening.
gt fking emo i nearly cried.
it's lk.. im sry for not being dere, for leaving u in rv & for being so busy when ure down.
im such a loser.
im sry gal, really. plsplspls cheer up and tc of urself.
*hugs* rmb my lesbian tendencies & laugh abit yea?

14 days. cant stop thinking abt it too. & seeing it on ur pm just forces me to rmb tt dere isnt much time. yet..

bad fren, bad gf.
wad's next?
failure in school as well?

i hate myself.

yting l.

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