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Tuesday, August 28, 2007
hellos~ um here at this hour due to the way i nv fail to procrastinate =X tired and sleepY! damn it.. i dowan do the assignment ler lah! but its lk graded.. damns=( now no dar to pei mi.. just now still talk to him over the fone. feel so bad.. ytd called him in the middle of the nite. RAWRs Monday, August 27, 2007 this is just so unlike me i dno what went wrong but evt seems to have gone wrong alright. um not making sense. maybe i shld reallie think before i start typing. today was kinda okay i guess had a great laugh during maths. dengyin had a "classic mistake" on her exponential curves ws she wrote "for a positive value of b, the curve shits to the left" liu yijie practically drew tht on the ws accompanied by a series of "?!?!" this aside, today marks the first day of intense tution. i rather do intense pt.. at least my sqddies are by my side just lk last fri's act. most lkly the last pt we gna have as cadets i guess. sighs.. Sunday, August 26, 2007 can anyone save mi? um drowning its the same feeling i had just now when we were made to swim w/o goggles its just lk opening ur eyes and not being able to see anything. u want to noe where u r going where u can go yet no matter how hard u try, u carn find the way um panicking within. just lk how i panicked in the pool just now i reallie cldn breathe and i carn breathe properly now. its scary. i wanna cry and yet i noe i carn i am NOT weak i insist on this & i can make myself strong but is dere anyone who can accompany mi tru this? zhen de hen xin ku wheets! celebrating post no 151 on my blog lols. maybe its time to change skin.. still must find. RAWR tralalas. went for lifesaving course just now.. yao lei si le lah~ nevertheless, it was damn fun! hee. nearly killed yueting and zimin when they were my casualties XP lalala.." feel lk crap thoughh carn seem to perfect evt luhhs. fk it>,< & to think i kip panicking when swimming coz i cldn c anything=( zhen mei yong.. going for tut soon. byE! & i love&TREASUREmysqdm8s^^ coz they r worth it <3 Saturday, August 25, 2007 nth matters can anyone tell mi how to do phys assignment 9? it sucks ahwells. everything sucks to mi. leave mi alone. i dowanna go to school i dowanna c anyone else i just want my sqdm8s can i just go to cca and nt school? i dont lk my class i dont lk anyone. not even hiM le so wads the point of going to school lols tralala. so many other factors tht interferes with my life. i dont lk it. its over so let mi go i dont want ur presence to affect mi Thursday, August 23, 2007 weets been slping at lk 2 for the past 2 nites today lk freaking late for school hid in the toilet until ek's lecture ended. this whole week is lk crap lols most of the time made it to assembly on time coz chiong. fly to class dens just nice.. wtfreak manx.. hope this doesnt continue.. screwed bio presentation but still must thank piglet for encouraging mi lol made mi less nervous though i still shivered.. at least not shaking lk fk.. XP been thinking alot these days. and yet could have thought mre if i werent so tired by the end of each day sians lah.. think so much still no conclusion to tell/ not to tell? i reallie dont noe yet. most lkly not i think.. watched secret with clarine ytd. lk so paiseh Y AM I LK ONE OF THE FEW CRYING?! lk no one cry lahh. it was damn nice though reminded mi of a book i read. damn touched & yet its so unbelievable. wadevas lahs. Sunday, August 19, 2007 wondering wads becoming of mi. i actually cried in front of so many pple in NP room over nth lahs lk wtf. wads wrong with yingting? oni no one pick up fone at home oni lahs. damns. dno y cldn breathe properly den end up crying freak lah LAMESAI forget it.. bio pract tmr. i don even count it as official paper. though its graded. who cares.. ok maybe someone out dere does but i dont. heck lah tired of trying. Wednesday, August 15, 2007 so tired. i feel lk giving up on my chem, my maths tmr's maths retest and the official last paper: chem i dont think i can hold on any longer. its like, i dont even have the energy to care bout the one i really like dont even have the strength to think of how it gna be like next time. i dont even wanna bother trying to care for guys i dont like at all weikai can spread wadeva rumours he wants to, pple can believe what they hear etc coz i dont care anymore. it feels lk hanging on the edge of a cliff with the last bit of my strength. not enough strength to pull myself up to safety, wanting to give up and yet clinging onto hope tht someone will pull me up.. and at the same time wondering how much longer i can hold on. i'm so scared now. i dont know if i can make it. there r just too many unknown factors. too much uncertainty for mi to take a brave step forward i hate this feeling of helplessness i just wanna cry everything out but i just cant i will just continue smiling in front of pple just continue giving them the image tht i am a happy, carefree FLIRT they can think wad they like ba. i dont care lerhs only my true friends will know what's going on i will just do my best in staying by them as for the rest, live in ur fantasy. u r officially shut OUT of my world Monday, August 13, 2007 sqdm8s! we r taking activity as NCOs the first time. yi ding yao jiao you!^^ hee. yingting's gna be eh.. casualty ic! so btr not let juniors fall out ltr kena tortured by mi xP lalas. act high failed ohys lk sai how to high lah 23.5/50 mr teo damn disappointed. i din do the 13 marks qns. damnit.. i missed passing grade dno y i even tried. shld have known i gna fail. fking demoralised maybe um just dumb Sunday, August 12, 2007 heys pple! jiayous for CommonTests worhs! hee.. no commontests for us. but a fking hell lot of dno wtf tests damn it.. stress lahh phys, bio prat this coming week mathsRetest*cmon i failed by 2 miserable marks* & chem test coming up too dno how on earth i gna cope. Saturday, August 04, 2007 depressed.. seems tht i overestimated myself again. thot i can take it even when um goddamn tired but wells, the fact tht i cldn even get up today proved mi wrong darlingling called mi but when talking, i was actually half aslp sry darling xP DAMN IT! I WANNA GO FOR NP! I WANT MY SQDM8S! ALRD POLISH SHOES LIAO LAHH! rawr! went to watch tht li da sha thing ytd quite nice but i carn stand the story.. so freaking longg. and yet i love it..XP contradicting as usual.. wish i can get to do stuffies lk tht and reach home aft midnite with my sqddies agn=) btw.. NP posting out lerhh loads of us din get what we want and many of sqdm8s ability not recognised. lk wj i seriously think he will do a btr job den mi being a sec1 sqd ic. yet i am sqd ic and he's not. lk wth.. i shld be the one with oni CC com lah damns... hate this.. and many of us were lk damn sad can? all the CIs and HOs noe how to say is, lk it or not, u will have to accpet it and do ur job c'mon all they care bout is the unit. NEVER US depressed.. seems tht i overestimated myself again. thot i can take it even when um goddamn tired but wells, the fact tht i cldn even get up today proved mi wrong darlingling called mi but when talking, i was actually half aslp sry darling xP DAMN IT! I WANNA GO FOR NP! I WANT MY SQDM8S! ALRD POLISH SHOES LIAO LAHH! rawr! went to watch tht li da sha thing ytd quite nice but i carn stand the story.. so freaking longg. and yet i love it..XP contradicting as usual.. wish i can get to do stuffies lk tht and reach home aft midnite with my sqddies agn=) btw.. NP posting out lerhh loads of us din get what we want and many of sqdm8s ability not recognised. lk wj i seriously think he will do a btr job den mi being a sec1 sqd ic. yet i am sqd ic and he's not. lk wth.. i shld be the one with oni CC com lah damns... hate this.. and many of us were lk damn sad can? all the CIs and HOs noe how to say is, lk it or not, u will have to accpet it and do ur job c'mon all they care bout is the unit. NEVER US Thursday, August 02, 2007 i am SO FREAKING STRESSed damn it. iscrewed up all my tests this week. mathTest. 18/40 bio test, chem test, phys test, chinese test CONFRIM FAIL getting back bio tmr. if i fail it den serve mi right lah.. out of 4 topics i oni studied one.. wadevas.. chem pract. i totally dono wad to do.. phys test i reallie tried my best ler reallie trying very hard coz Mr teo reallie spent alot of effort in helping mi all i can say is Sry ba.. & chinese.. i dont understand a single shit.. i alrd tried studying. tried my best so freaking tired and disappointed now |
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