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Saturday, January 30, 2010
i admit i regret going to poly. regret taking HTM. regret not insisting on going SHATEC.regret not taking up SP's offer. but fk it. so what if i regret? sick and tired of having so many things to do, even if ive done so many things. im nt lk my classmate, Aizsa, who is really good at what she does (yes, i look up to her) neither am i lk kerry who is motivated to do well and works hard. no. im neither of them. & i did not wish to leave rv to try even harder in school. i also wish i did not wish rv for a simple reason. projects. all the time i was there, even if the proj is something chionged out last minute, it never fell short of a B. so fk it tt i was stupid enough to leave th people there. im nt saying poly peeps are bad. it's just tt rvians do things so differently i miss th way i was trained for 4yrs tho i hated th school and culture to th core. look, it's freaking tiring doing so much and having much more to do. it sucks having to give specific instructions for everything when things cldve been done perfectly well based on own discretion. know th stress of having to do evt to th best and fearing that th blame will be put on you if anything fks up? compiling's th whole big motherfking issue. true there's work well done but there's those that fall far short of expectations. imagine dealing with that proj after proj since sem 1 for NEARLY ALL th projs we have when most ppl just finish their parts and are spared. THAT IS Y LAONIANG WANTS TO JUST HAVE A PART IN PROJS AND SETTLE IT ASAP TOO. not tt i wldn help out if there's a need but hey, isnt it too much if im in nearly the same group for each proj and compiling's up to me as always? i said i wldn compile anymore after th prev sem but somehow th job's always pushed to me at th end. srsly wonder why this is so. is it because im easy to bully? or is it because i try not to pressurize ppl on the dateline cause i know it's hard having to juggle so many things? most other frens tell me it's both. am i supposed to conclude that it's because i try to be nice and understanding that i land myself in all tt shyt tt others can avoid? i guess it's hard for mutual respect to exist when everyone's involved in a race against time but i certainly dont expect to be made to do last min work on the day before a proj is due. think. how many times have i said "no, i cant do this". [maybe im asking for it by giving allowances (back to the issue on not pushing pple to diedie must submit by deadline) ]. i've always tried to accomodate, pushing everything to my limit based on the various dates for proj submissions. trust me, always having to rush when things were supp to be done long before SUCKS. I apologise for being incompetent if that pleases you. (i swear im not pointing fingers. pls dont take offence.) lesson learnt for th yr: in future, i'll not be a free rider but neither will i bother so much about other stuff in a proj. ppl who work with me in future, im sorry but u got the worse deal. ive had enough of evt and having ppl reproach me. random outburst. i guess im either emo or pmsing Wednesday, January 27, 2010 more screwed than ever. resume and cover letter fked up on me. less thn 2 weeks to learn french and jap. how much more am i willing to fk up? lk seriously.. Monday, January 25, 2010 taking time off to blog. sadly, im still flooded with hwk. but "happily", my lil biibii Jwee is superbly supporting and understanding(: drove tt silly boy nutz a few nights back. ROFL. TORRES!! muahahaha! inside joke xPP BABY! let's go out on saturdayy(: [if ure nt working uhh] lalalalalala! Tuesday, January 19, 2010 Propee just made my day/night. we lk the same songs and th same peepo!! XDD awesomezxz! First, it was I Know You Want Me, Silver&Gold etc now, it is Keisha & Lady GAGA! YAY! nw i know im nt tt weird =) - ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says: *i noe u wan me~ u noe i wan cha~ *LOL *ok i kuku le DinoBiteysaur says: *LOL *even got a queen sized mattress we can lay xDD - ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says: *LOL *ey noobshyt *u gt *the song *tik tok *? DinoBiteysaur says: *EHH *dun have *but i lk!! - ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says: *walao =( *LOL DinoBiteysaur says: *omg keisha - ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says: *ok *yay *LOL *LOVE U HAHA DinoBiteysaur says: *her songs are awesomezxzxzx - ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says: *bu kui shi wo de noobshyt =) DinoBiteysaur says: *and i lk gaga too *her MV is lk *hilarious - ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says: *yaaa! *LOL DinoBiteysaur says: *LOL *u noe th song bad romance rite - ↫ Ŧ [S]hαn [S]hαn Ŧ - ℉↬ says: *esp bad romance *omfg *YA *LOL im sooooo eggcited xD hwk time's much btr alr! Friday, January 15, 2010 Puffy B. Domo 14jan'o9xD Im NUTS la Thursday, January 14, 2010 deleted the prev post as i must agree that it is pretty harsh. still, it doesnt mean tt im nt affected. i just cant blog rationally with that temper of mine. & yet another thing to piss me off. im giving up despite working for it alr. Friday, January 08, 2010 No, ive not forgotten that ive got a blog. updates(: shopping with Momok ltr @ Bugis. & A whole freaaking mountain of work to be done over th weekend. im starting to worry about coping and keeping up. plus, being a good gf. been far from these recently. oh. & i realised ive yet to rid of my addiction to emo songs. ive no idea why either. Rawrs! here's one 曾沛慈-泪了 天快亮了 能不能别离开呢 沉默像首悲伤的歌 捂上视线却模糊了 你要走了 也带走所有快乐 甜蜜的片段散落了 疲倦了心冷了我哭了 那流星闪过 我们许下一个愿望 要在一起绝不分离 你怎么放弃了 星空在闪烁 像你的眼泪 悄悄划过 当你放开了手 离开的时候 有没有一点舍不得我 泪光在闪烁 而我的眼泪忍住 不敢坠落 我还留在黑暗中守候 你却已经远远离开我 离开我了 梦醒了还剩什么 我要的幸福消失了 你的心曾经属于我的 那流星闪过 我们许下一个愿望 要在一起绝不分离 你怎么放弃了 星空在闪烁 像你的眼泪 悄悄划过 当你放开了手 离开的时候 有没有一点舍不得我 泪光在闪烁 而我的眼泪忍住 不敢坠落 我还留在黑暗中守候 你却已经远远离开我 有过的快乐 我都记得 回忆还旋转着 爱怎么停了 我们都累了 星空在闪烁 像你的眼泪 悄悄划过 当你放开了手 离开的时候 有没有一点舍不得我 泪光在闪烁 而我的眼泪忍住 不敢坠落 我还留在黑暗中守候 你却已经远远离开我 Jwee, thkyou for being there always even if i get snappy and irritable. Tuesday, January 05, 2010 On the verge of a vulgar spam. &here goes kns.. fking bored la.. wtf.. gahhhs... hahaha.. ok.. i was kidding. but only abt th laoniang part. the lesson is really fcking boring. grrr... 1morehour. i hope it ends early. RAWRR Monday, January 04, 2010 happy girl(: cause Jwee biibii cooked nicenice noodles for meee xDD mummmummmummmm.. Happy girl(: biibii gna buy me th juicy wallet from blogshop preorder! YAY! i was super troublesome abt th present lol! made him go bugis st & junction to look for bag after which i cldn decide what i want. den i changed my mind to th wallet cause i really lked it but am super duper broke. so he agreed to my request to change headphone+bag to th wallet. AWW.. so nice to mee rite?!xD &&&! i cldn really make up my mind abt wad colour i wanted SO i sent him th links xp he chose th one tt i was sort of more attracted to awesomezxzxzx! in conclusion, i am a happy gal w a nicenice bf who dotes on me <33 Sunday, January 03, 2010 hellos world(: just finished entertaining myself after bqt. had a bread coz im super hungry=( fatfat again.. sigh.. it's bathe and work time alr. rawrr.. gotta do laundry first tho. grr.. biibii went for soccer trial today and got into t team(: see.. my shuai bf's good k! but gaahs! tt silly boyf sure start pressurising himself abt not playing well enough & start worry tt he doesnt have enough time for us. so silly uh!! & so... To J.wee: worry k? lk u always tell me, trying your best is enough. dun give up no matter what uh! lk i gave up on floorball.. plusplus! we gna be alright cause we can meet up even for awhile for food!! xD lalala.. & someone still owes me presents! wait.. is some TWO! Momok & J.Wee. WHEN DO I GET MY PRESENTS?! rawrrrR! i need to be cheered up after th disasters at work. 1. Broke a wine glass in abt 2mins i went for cocktail. 2. Nearly spilled a drink on th guest (lucky nvr. splashed on her feet tho) 3. Hit a guest's head w my tray 4. Broke 4 porcelain cups when i cleared them into th kitchen. i suck. srsly.. |
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