nth worth believing in

黄进光选衣服比选女朋友更细心 xP
aiyooohs.. bii where can lk tt right? so mean... tsk!
but well.. tt's just so typical of my bigbig silly boy ^-^

had fun w him today.
spent lotsa moneyyyy & I GOT MY PRESSIES FROM TT PRECIOUS BOY xDD
thankyou biibii(: he let me bully. HAHHAA
we got our couple tees tooooooooo!
tho th cutting of th shirts are different, they are th same design. I CHOOSE DE xP
& because my bf loves mee, he gave in.
so sweet uh!

cldn have dinner w him tho=(
cause my granddad wanted dinner w me.
& lastly..

falling in love is a beautiful experience.
& what makes it perfect is tt th one i fell in love w is you.
thankyou for always being dere, for always trying to make everything perfect for us & for being so forgiving.
ynoe.. it's just ur bad luck u got a badbad gf but u nvr gave up by simply believing in th love.
iloveyou too.
Happy 8mths anni<3

Look at th picture.

if i die, u peeps gna noe wad happnd xP
hint -Jwee: "i dont know if i got it right"

so i decided to blog before i drink in case it's wrong.
MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

*tries*
nt bad la.. bt i prefer my javachipx
oh by t way, it's whitechocomocha which ive been wanting to try xD

Just a short post before bed(:
especially for my dearest biibii.

my excel's done xD
but nt w me giving up and simply submitting wad i did. still, it was pretty remarkable i lasted tt long so no complains.

xmas was spent working and also on th excel proj. dumbness.
but the wee hrs of 26th was super o.O
my precious boy decided to go mia scaring everyone.
JAMESWEE UH! u dumbass!
& i realised how much u mean to me. still, u were too naughty for kisses XP

oh..
& THANKYOU EVERYONE FOR TH NICE PRESSIES!
jameswee! where's mine?
hahah! my present from clarine is pending. HOHO

gotta reach school at 8plus ltr.
bedtime=(
i havent ranted enough yet=((

looking forward to biibii's day though!

im done with excel, not.

how cld i have lost it? fk i suck.
lk of all th things.. how cld i have lost it?
fkme. srsly.

cant find it anywhere.
im really sorry baby.. sorrysorry=(

He loves me so much he gives me warmth even when he isnt right by my side(:
&bii, im talking abt you. AWWW..

im wearing ur jacket & blogging as promised.
see.. im sucha good gal.
so u hav to be a good boy and get well soon tooo!
sillyboy.. make me worried.. think u havent been resting enough+ having to work etcs=(

gaaahs..
IF U DONT RECOVER DEN I WUN GIVE U SMTH!
bleh!

anw bii.. im sry for being such a naughty ass uhs!
and for nt being a gd gf toos..
still.. ILOVEYOU k?
nt spending time w u dont mean tt ure nt impt to me alr.
*hugs*

imsuperdupersleepy.
&imissthCARTOONSMILEofyours.
goodnightprecious!

combination of being pissed off, stressed up, happy & "???". im nutz, i know.

trying to get work done but i just cant seem to get anth right.
cant connect hp to lappy=dead cause most of th fort canning pics are w me.
wasted a whole load of time on it. damnx.

i feel lk im in a race w time being my competitor.
i hate running & i feel lk giving up alr but it simply isnt an option.
dont want a cui gpa tho i think it's inevitable for this sem. fkshyt.

im upset w my fats but i cant resist food.
freaks. why do my fats not grow at th right places?
i do nt wna be stuck w an A-cup all my life. & i dont get y my tummy refuses to abandon meee>.<
upsetupsetupset..

mum's pissing me off w th "why do u nt lk to stay @ home / why do u nt lk to spend time w th family" shyt.
i will lk it and will be more willing to do it if i can be myself.
lk y put myself tru all tt pretence?
im slutty, weird and love anth they hate. it's nt me being rebellious but im just me.
dont see what's wrong w being me. hate th opposition.
therefore,
I HATE BEING AT HOME AND AM SUPER UNWILLING TO BE W THEM.
understood-ed?

but baby boy made it all btr(:
Javachip for me next tyme plus th first cup of whitechocomocha shall be made by him xDDDD
lalalas
he's always so nice to me no matter how mean i am =X
must try to be nicer.

off to th real world again.

ROFL! HACKER!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA! JIAYOU K! XP NEEEEEEEEED ANYTHING FEEEEL FREE TO COME TO ME HOR! DUN BECAUSE I BUSY THEN U DUN ASK ME FOR HELP HUH! I'M WITH YOU REMEMBER! XP ANYTHING WE SHARE K?! :) HUBBY LOVES YOU NO MATTER HOW KAYPO/NOISY/FIERCE/MONSTER/MEAN/IRRITATING XP NOOOO GOOD THINGS ABT YOU HEH!! I WILLLLL STILL BE WITH YOU NO MATTER WHAT:) CHEERS! SMILE BIG BIG K? :) RAWR! DUN GIVE UP! YOZ LOL

today suckzxz.

ytd was slightly better

& th day before was good.
cabbed to ritz carlton w ley. $ flew & nth came out of it.
1200-1330. must remember tt. will be bek soon.
we got lost while on a bus search. ROFL.
partner-ed w wl&venus for bqt. nice cause we were pretty fast. muahahahaha.

was late in th morning. totally had no motivation to work.
quite a mircale i survived. (perhaps for th fun at night)
died in bed for 2 hours, met J,A,Cha,Ley and SHOP!
actually, more was spent of food but who cares xD $ just keep flying & maybe it isnt tt bad tho im going broke.

woke up at 7 despite having to strat at 7.
im so freaking sorry. i knw i promised nt to be late but i fell aslp on my hp. zzz
tried calling up a few peeps to replace me but it didnt work.
ended up nt going cause it's ridiculous to reach near 9.
i need more motivation to work.

& i realised ive got schoolwork undone.

Me.
sometimes i rather be left to fend for myself despite th strong want to be cared for.
for with all th care comes restriction.
it's stupid th way i take risks.
& it's senseless how i always act on impulse and make decisions as i go.
it's just me to want to experience things differently no matter how dangerous it may be, without weighing th consequences.
i guess such characteristics which makes up so much of me hurts ppl who care.
yet, my desire for freedom to do what i want th way i want really gets th better of me i dont wna give it up.

maybe, it's just better im left alone even if i have to think back abt all th what ifs.
what if i were not so stubborn?
what if i had listened?
what if..

it's just so not me, just so much better if no one cared cause it wld be btr for them too

a short post before bed.
bii, i knw ive been hurting u w my attitude but it's really how i feel.
it doesnt mean tt ure nt impt to me anymore or tt i dont love u alr.
read ur post. im really sorry..
no matter what, i still love my brown baby and my Blues k?
dont know why i dont show it anymore.
dont know why i have such high need for freedom too. im really veryveryvery sorry but i dont knw wad i can do alr >(

gaaahs..

/ a list of to-dos
Socio outline.
MicroEc article
Visual Journal
CS Journal

Socio Proj
OB Proj
MExcel Proj (indiv)
Geog&travel Proj

what else?

im screwed for OB cause i cant concentrate.
& im getting upsrt because i knw im screwed but still cant concentrate
-.-

fk la.
screw it alright?

freaking angry w myself.
& im freaking pissed w tt fucktard who keeps calling my hp.
destroyed my mood when i got down to wanting to study.
told her wrong number alr still can call and call. stupid or wad?
srsly make me feel lk going nnbcb.
6 times sia.. after i say wrong number. make me fking dulan

ahwells. fk it yet again.
cant be bothered but it just pisses me off.

if my mood doesnt get better after th paper (i think it will get worse)
i gna consider going out myself.

i think, im suffering from PPS.
emoness hit me shortly after th prev post.
srsly.. my moodswings are getting from bad to worse.
pre-papers-stress?
i certainly hope so or it gna mean tt im going nuts.

wtf.
off to study.

pray i gna enjoy post-papers-syndrome tomorrow before i suffer from yet another bout of pre-projects-stress.
so looking forward to meeting w my precious boy after sooooo long.

baby, it doesnt mean tt i love u less alr alrights?

it's enjoyable to admire a hot guy in th midst of studying.
here,

hawts<3
& th dance was pretty nice too.
maybe it's cause he's sooooooooooo irresistably hot.

rofl.
i sound so crazy.
siala...

i swear im still normal.

last paper tmr!

HAPPY BDAY LOOYINGRONG

i swear tt bro of mine is sick in his mind lol!
him: siala.. go sentosa do what?
me: go c butterfly lor.. t butterfly place..
him: see what.. also no figure. i only lk colouful colourful one.(he was thinking abt bikinis. wtf)
me: arbo u next time open one bikini shop everday sit inside see lor. want smell also can. (decided to play along)
him: dont want la.. u might as well tell me install cam inside fitting room.

what a good start on th day he turns 15-.-

heading to his chalet later( lucky uh? think he 18 bday can book hotel, 21 can hold function alr)

anw, gtg study. i dno how to apply th concepts. fked up.
im so gna fail tmr.
really see no point in trying >( zzz

oh & thx Y&Z for studying w me!

bii! u greedy! i read ur post ohkays! idiotzxz xpp

for my dearest:)

hello biibii! im blogging for YOU
xP
i knw ure worried abt me staying out late to study w guys etcs but smileee k?
iloveyou & u noe it *awwww*

little blue & crane really cheered me up lots <3
off to study alr.

miss me!
& slp well alrights?

hugskisses&loves

upset cause i cant seem to sync my songs into my ipod after i restored its settings.
Fk it. no songs for idk how long.
super pissed off.
i think it has smth to do w smth i set unknowingly & i dont rmb how to set it back

UPSETANGRYPISSEDSTRESSEDUHHAPPY

lost hope.

lecture test later.
im starting to think tt im really dumb and it isnt helping me.
it's nt lk i didn study (in fact, i did it thrice alr) but i cant seem to rmb what i studied.

& th way i handle things..
damnit. im such a letdown.

gotta try to be better. by alot.

bii, i love u(:
thanks for wanting to be there and being therefor me despite all th hurt ive caused.

yting l.

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