nth worth believing in

when i was in poly, i rlsed the good thing about working w idiots is tt u can differentiate the act dumbs and the really stupid.
& now i realised it's all true. what lecturers used to tell us about how service is a "two-way street which involves the customers"

bt what really gets at me is that.. working in a call centre has made me socially awkward.
idk how to react appropriately to angry ppl in real life because im kinda numb to ppl getting angry.
(most of the time im yawning away in my seat, whatsapping, replying emails while tossing in an occassional "uhuh.. ok.." unless im goddamn angst up & i go "nnbccbkpkbsibeysongah?knn" while on mute)
so in real life when someone's rly angry.. i either have a poker face, really yawn in their faces, "huh" and self-entertain or worst still, i just laugh.

am i another bodoh in the making? fml lol!

premarital sex.
ynoe it isnt necessarily a taboo or smth we sld absolutely not engage in.
because when it's good, it's awesome.
& it keeps us connected,literally.

ok. im kidding. enough rubbish
what i really wanted to say is, Hello Babyboy! I love you so very much <3 p="p">& thank you for the 4 mths of love though i gna keep demanding for a continuous supply of hugssexkissescuddles etc. ok. leave out sex. i dont quite ask for that LOL :x
& thank you for the awesome birthday surprise which left me more shocked than surprised.
im sorry for presenting u to my family, not. HAHAHA
imanevilgirlfriend.yourevilgirlfriend.

you keep me going when life's being a real bitch and work has to rub it in further.
cause knowing that we're both doing it for our future makes every bit of it more worthwhile
& knowing u'd always be there (i hope) makes roughing it through much more bearable . oops i know u want to "sai la!" or "rubbish la u" me for the (i hope) part.

i love you more than i know how to express myself & uhm. maybe more than the number of words a dictionary can have

So babyboy, just know this (:

no matter how cranky each other gets
no matter how unreasonable i am
regardless of my babble abt marrying a Caucasian/rich old man

I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
...
We'll still love each other, forever and always
-Parachute

i was abt to add "whether thrs a Cartier ring or not" but that's not up for negotiations, yet.
*kisses to shut u up*

Angst-d up on a Wednesday morning
Hello Mummy. Thanks for pissing me off th moment i woke up.
if u havent realised, i do mean it when i say im not satisfied in life. for all th unfair choices i had to be subjected to.

so there you go screaming, sighing, nagging early in th morning because i woke up at 0718 instead of 0700.
ur point: i upset your schedule & my bro's because he was supp to help out at the shop
ur sec pt: i do not help out so idk what it's like.
ok. now my point- IF I WOKE UP AT 0700 AS PLANNED, DO I BATHE IN THE KITCHEN USING THE SINK SINCE YOU BATHED TILL 0178?
no right? be thankful i did not flare up. i fucking decided to control myself.

so what's ur issue w spoiling my morning when it was ur fault?
look, i find it ridiculous when ppl obviously are unhappy with the choices they made and it seems lk their kids' fault.
you cld've stuck to ur glamourous SIA career. u chose th market stall. so does that make it my fucking fault that i just dont like it there?
u chose to have kids. if all these extra commitments made u unhappy, im sorry i was born. but pls fucking realise I DID NOT HAVE THE GODDAMN ABILITY TO CHOOSE WHICH FAMILY I WAS BORN TO OR WHETHER I WANTED TO EVEN BE BORN IN TH FIRST PLACE.
u see, u had the ability to choose. i didnt.
u made ur choices and u cant deny that it shortchanged all of us. so what the fuck are u taking it all out on me for?

just a short blogpost before i start studying.
customary. to clear my brains of all th (in)significant thoughts.

think i messed up big time recently. made th wrong choices.
wondering why i hv to make decisions and double guess them over & over again.

so maybe.. let's call this the "if i cldve done things differently"post.
i wldve been a vain pot who insist on dressing up instead of succumbing to the comfort of tees, hoodies, shorts, slippers and sneakers.
i wldnt have opted for a BComm Banking and Finance. maybe BArts H&T.
(not in some sg pvt institution. in Switzerland maybe)
im saying im regretting my choices. pretty much hating myself for making life turn out this way.

well.. perhaps if we cld turn time a lil bit more backwards, i'd have taken E.Lit in sec school, stayed through & perhaps major in languages.

then again, i wonder if the life i dreamt of cld even exist in the first place.

love,relationships&hypocrisy
a friend forgot why he loved his girlfriend.
i told him perhaps it's time he figured out why he loved her so he could love her more.
while i was thinking.. "if only it's that simple. if only this sort of love existed"

have always been cynical. no matter how much i try to believe in cotton candy romance.
guess that only happens in teenage dreams.
& im turning 20. goodbye _teen.
goodbye dreams.

then again, he's th best choice ive ever made

yting l.

Give me presents on 09/10. I love rings, ice-cream, chocolate, candies, piercings & pretty little things.

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