nth worth believing in

was replying yt's tag when therewas a funny lil pop-up tht made mi laugh to myself for abit.
it was incredibly, incredulous.

it goes lk this...

your pornsurfing activities have been tracked.(etcetc)

only rmbed the first sentence.
but it basically says tht my com has been found to contain porn and other illegal stuff.
so, i shld click on the link and remove these stuffies.

but HEY!
wth pple! PORN?!

for one, my parents does not lk porn.
even if they do, my dad does not use the hse com AT ALL and my mum..
sighs..
computer illiterate xP

and i think i have to make this very clear.
I HAVE ZERO INTEREST IN PORN.
for those who know me, i am more interested in guys.
and sadly, old men are interested in mi when i have absolutely no interest in them.
ahwells.
bottom line: i DO NOT watch porn

now for my bro.
he wouldn dare.
& why wud he be interested when he has a much more interesting sister?!
lalala...

erm but well..
as i said, its just a pop-up.
but its so freaking funny to be accused of "porning" by it.
never mind..
i am just being lame to blog about this.
thx for wasting ur tyme

the short sentence made up of those simple words.

i noe what they mean. but i didnt know they could hurt that much.

i guess your presence will not make much of a difference now or in future.
i've lost u tgt with those meaningless messages u sent in the past.

i would be lying if i said i belived in the sweet nothings that left me hanging
the inability to trust u had hurt alot
it will get better gradually from now on

thx for letting me go

the coversation in the previous post was ctrl-c, ctrl-v frm yih's blog. THX GAL!

tht day was reallie suay lahh!

#1 i screwed up at math P1
i had half an hour more after doing those i think i noe how to do lah! lk OMG.

#2 got scolded by a freaking bitch at bugis street
refer to previous post

#3 saw so many nice stuff at bugis street but no $$
rawr! very xin ku lehh

#4 i lost my hp!!
er.. ok.. it was pick-pocketted away at bugis street. tht idiot oso stupid lah! tht hp is lk so freaking old. he want sell oso er.. carn fetch much $$. plus the cover is fake one lor! JOKER.
BUT I MISS MY HP! the contacts! omg.. feel so handicapped w/o it='(plus i got scolded lah..

thx yihh and momok for going hello! shop with mi to disconnect the line^^

#5 forgot my hse keys..

reallie lk a series of unfortunate events man..

our day at bugis street.

"aunty, 对不起，我们去别的地方看了再回来。”

“什么？！？！我刚才看你们在那边选衣服，以为你们要买，才让你们试穿的。我看你们从名校来的，也很有诚意要买，才让你们试穿的。如果是 neighbourhood school 的学生，我才不让他们试穿。” ( lao zha bor..u doing business still dare so picky? look down on pple ar?)

"对不起, 我们很有诚意的要买,但是。。我们觉得要看其他的衣服，而且现在身上带不够现金，需要去提款。。”

“有诚意买就买啦！！我这里可以用卡，不用去提款。”

“。。。但是。。。我们不知道这里不可以试穿。而且穿起来也怪怪的。”

“我不是在说不可以试穿。(den wad u implying?)就像刚才那的印度人，穿了那件衣服看起来很紧，你们穿都可以，很好看，我看过那么多人，我知道的。你们不要跟我找借口。”

“我自己穿上去我自己知道什么感觉，你哪里会知道。”*ben xiao jie getting real pissed*

“你不要跟我找借口。我看你们是从名校来的，相信你们不会乱捣蛋，因为有很多从neighbourhood school 来的学生，来这边试玩玩，捣蛋。我还以为你们很有诚意，既然穿了可以，就买啦！” ( i buy u pay? idiot.)

“可是。。。*me & yih told clarine to go out first.* 。。。

“刚才你们说了，如果合适，会买两件。人家做生意，你们这样很不好。我刚刚开门做生意，你们就这样来捣蛋。现在不是要骂你们，是在和你们讲道理。如果你们这样来试穿了不要卖，那有客人，我又在帮你们，那我岂不是迷失了一个客人吗？我们开门做生意不可以这样的！”(jiang dao li ur head lah! u got ke ren den u dont serve us & we reallie want buy same oso rite? PLUS we didn say we confirm wanna buy..)

“对不起。我们不是有意的。。我们是很有诚意要买，但我们还要到处走走看看先。。”

“我会让你们走，你们走你们走，但以后不要再这样做了！”

yea.. this is the whole convo we had wif a shop keeper at Bgis street. PINKBOX i think.. correct mi if um wrong xP
went out wif yih and mok aft maths paper to find long sleeve shirt. den this freaking AUNTY pissed us off totally.. accused us of dno wad fk.. asshole.. if ben xiao jie did smth wrong den scold mi by all means but hey! GET A LIFE MAN. WE DID NTH!

#1 this freaking old lady is lk.. Selling CLOTHES! how on earth do u buy if u dont try?
#2 we had reallie intended to buy it. oni tht it didn fit upon trying so we obviously wun buy the
shirt lah!
#3 i dont lk her attitude.
#4 she didn say tht we have to buy once we try. EH WTF? cannot fit oso buy? transy..
#5 EXCUESE MI! we didn say we confirm buy.

i seriously wonder wher she gets her income with tht fking attitude. SAP school den u serve ar?
den u can wait to guan men da ji liao lo! Omg pple.. this is seriously the first tyme i've seen such an unreasonable shopkeeper. and she claimed to know tht it fits us just by looking. in my honest opinion, she must be comparing us to herself la! the shirt obviously wun fit tht FAT COW. this must be the case ba! she wear le den the shirt SPLIT. we wear nv. so it fits lor!

aiya.. wdv. she sucks fulltyme. even if i end up lking the shirt the best, i am so not gna go back lor! she dowan let pple try her stuff, den sell stuff tht cannot be tried la! lk.. TOILET PAPER? pple cannot try the texture rite?

end up we met a nicenice aunty^^ bought a nicer shirt from a nicer person! i told her bout the incident den she said smth tht makes sense.. " yi hou yu dao zhe yang de ren, wen ta shi bu shi mai bu chu qu suo yi ying ying yao ni men mai" haha! the aunty so nice de! she still let us try the top wif a skirt coz i din wear pe shorts lah!*i mean.. i wore some other shorts* next mth she got new stock. mi got $$ sure go agn!^^

bought a damnx cute watch oso! <33

the girl came back home after her eoy Chemistry paper
it was reallie disheartening.
she had really studied but it seems tht hard work just don't pay off.
somehow, she cldn get the answers out of the mind.

on her way home, she decided to drop by her mum's shop
"c ur face i noe u cannot make it"
tht was the first sentence even before she cld say hi
following this was nagging. nagging & more nagging
"u just didn study hard enough"
"u dare say u studied? how come u dont know everything?"
"how much did you study anyway? last minute?"
"u just didn put in effort"
all these accusations were hurled at her in front of her mum's friend.
it was all so not true.
she studied a lil here and there.
& she knew she tried her best.
but why cant her mum see that?

" so tmr maths how? study and fail again ar?"
thts it.
" try so hard for wad? i tried so hard today and yet all i can get is this lor"
before she knew it, her files and bag was dumped at her
angry, humiliated and disappointed, she just walked off.
she reallie kept her word.
she did not study but had a good sleep instead
perhaps she regretted but it's already too late.
theres not enough time left
but her regrets were only tht her teacher had put in alot of effort in trying to help her pass
not because she saw her mother's disappointed when she came back from work.

so what do you think?
maybe the fucking retarded girl paid for her mistake yea?
that bitch asked for it rite?
she chose to give up what..
ahwells. she is just pea-brained if she even has brains.
just tell her to fuck off and die?
forget it.. just despise her.. she deserves it

just give me one week
let me love u in this 7 days.
tht's all i ask for.

why do i even bother?
not lk it changes anything
he doesn care, he doesn know.

today was..
went for lifesaving as usual
got pumped in front of everyone coz i refused to do straddle jump.
i just carn do it can?!
but aft tht i kip lafing non-stop.
think y'all dno but i was actually near tears ler
ytd's events kept replaying in my mind.
his sms.

have i reallie wronged him?
or is he simply covering up for himself?

him(long ago):"will we be tgt one day?"

me: does he even lk mi?
his fren: dono leh.. ... .... but he went out and got a gal's no ytd.

lk wad does this mean?
i dno
he was supposed to be out with his mum
so what now?
i dno
um in no position to care.
for fk sake, um not even his gf.

xi huan yi ge ren mei ci dou na mer xin ku mah?

i just read her blog.
knew of her story.
seems tht the two of us r the same.

met a jerk,
fell in love,
& got hurt

only tht ive alrd let go of the guy who dumped mi w/o reason
unlike her.
although its kinda inevitable tht i wud sometimes look at him from afar
observing him quietly.
& thinking of how familiar the smile on his face is,
wishing tht it was meant for mi lk before.

have i made the wrong choice in agreeing to the break up?
didn he tell mi to change his mind if i didn want to break up when he did long ago?
i dont know.
i can't stop these thoughts even though i shldn even be thinking of them.
what if i had said no?
how wud things be lk now?

i seriously wonder..

on a lighter note,
lesson today was GREAT!
except for the fact tht i had to be Will's victim
tht bloody sec1 guy nearly killed mi man
i thot i swim vehh slow ler & HE'S SLOWER
had fun though
+funny coz of a stupid bunch of FUGLY guys who kep doing stupid stuff
bhb.. kip doing plunge in.
KNOW HOW AMUSED WE WERE NOT?
so happy lah!
got pple worse thn us so we not yet the worst man..

& the same group of FUGLY gys who wear their own "orbit" boxers to swim
HAD THE CHEEK TO DISCUSS MI IN FRONT OF MI
fugly assholes.
BEN XIAO JIE CHIO OR NOT NOT FOR U TO DECIDE MAN.
u my dad or my mum?
idiots..

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
before i end off,
i<3YIH my laopo

lost.
i dno wad to do ler.
my mum noes..
and she objects.
"how good is a person with two holes on his nose?"
suan ler..

cried lk fk.
smsed him
seems tht he doesn care
thn why bother acting lk he cares?
coz um from rv?
why bother wasting time texting mi & wasting my time replying?
.
.
.
just for the three words?
forget it..

i feel lk cursing and swearing.
and running lk crazy.
maybe if i run fast enough, i can escape this rite?^^

wad will u do if..
u know the decision u make following ur heart will hurt someone u reallie dont wanna hurt?
& the same decision will only end up in you getting hurt?

fk..
watching emo mvs and crying
i am plain stupid.

yes. ashtray. gettit?

this is so not fun..
exams r too near leh lah!
damns
ben xiao jie still haven study yet..
RAWR
somehow um more focused on playing
lala.
who cares?

these few days were crap
seriously saddening things kip happening
teachers' probs etcetc
& i've grown to hate kenneth
[nah.. its not coz of the floorball incident luhhs]
i just hate him to the core.
oni a lil less den i hate tlds and another bit lesser den i hate blgx

pple..
the previous post was random.
my ma just popped out suddenly & so i told her it was class blog.
not supposed to have a blog for dno wad freaking reason lahs
will update soon[=

JIAYOU FOR EOYS!
haha.

BYEEEE<3

hmmms
been real long since i updated
went out with momok 2 days ago
hee.
TO MARINA SQ!
so freaking fun xP

supposed to do work de den end up went SHOPPING!
marina is freaking cold[x
was looking arnd for heels and jackets
saw loads of nice heels but jackets..
nice but the price even nicer xP

arghx
saw a pair of heels
$35++
RAWRS

ohyes
& lyfe's getting btr and btr i suppose
though i haven reallie MUGGED as um supposed to
=X
sadly..

yting l.

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