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Friday, August 29, 2008
recalling how i used to be when i was just a kid, it dawned on me tt ive indeed changed into a person whose personalilty parallels tt of t past. it's scary knowing how much ive changed, how much worse ive become. it seems lk t old me has never existed, or perhaps, vanished. i feel lk a stranger even to myself. yes, it seems stupid but memories of myself as a child seems to be simply bits and pieces from a distant past ive nv known and much less lived in. maybe someday i will though... somehow, i realised.. Wednesday, August 27, 2008 i wonder what makes me happy maybe freedom can bring me t joy of living life as i want to perhaps being in t presence of friends will allow me t comfort of knowing tt im not alone probably having t ability to do well in something gna bring me t confidence which i lack ...... but all these dont seem to satisfy me im still wondering Tuesday, August 26, 2008 so fking disappointed gotten back results for several subs ss geog was okayish i guess but chem was a total sucker got and f9=GPA o yea. z e r o.. but i didn reallie study for it so i supp it doesn matter =x english was t disappoining one urs truely got a dumb 18/35 which is totally saddening my compre skills is as "good" as my EQ i guess.. hmmss-in deep thot- went shopping depite t horrendous cramps which hav been torturing me since morning gaaaaaa:( but i think shopping's a cure! xpxp saw several ugly stuff lk u noe.. FUGLY SHOES ewwwww.. y get them on t racks when noone gna buy them? i mean seriously noone unless tt person's some guailan idiot who thinks it's unique to look fugly -,- oh shit.. im bitchingg, again *bites* Monday, August 25, 2008 there's so much i wna say but.. im cant seem to express it all. Sunday, August 24, 2008 as it seems, nth gna come outta it i dont know what's wrong with my mum and dad now it's lk.. we've alrd talked it tru abt what gna happen at t end of this yr t transfer to shatec if i can make it + t olvl arrangements if i cant etc & my dad seems to have changed his mind w/o discussing t issues with us it's lk he just went lk " u think u r bloody rich is it? go find someone sponsor u la!" and telling me tt i sld stay on in rv for alvls seriously feel lk telling him tt i dont give a damn to HIS plan. if i gotta stay in rv, i will but well, i may get suspended/ expelled at my own will & if i aint allowed to go shatec, t most i'll just go to ite *shrugs* on a lighter note, today was fun! watching t olympic games & playing at Ant's hse was totally enjoyable not to mention t run in t morning(: Saturday, August 23, 2008 sry. i got kinda freaked Thursday, August 21, 2008 cesty, you gotta cheer up! rmb what i told u:) things are kinda getting outta hand currently my results, my behaviour.. evt. i wldn have bothered to think twice abt what others said in t past but somehow, what he said left me thinking y not go for a guy who loves me instead of a guy who has made it so clear tt________... true it aint t first tyme im thinking of this but it's reallie t first tyme i spent so much tyme thinking this tru it's kinda hard coz i cant comprehend my emotions and stuff lk tt now but somehow, there will be an ans of some form yea? afterall, wdv wishes i have now will nv come true. Tuesday, August 19, 2008 FABULOUS's t word CTs are so FINALLY OVER last paper tmr but well, it's chinese so im just gna take it as a "closing ceremony" afterall, t last paper tt ive gotta study for is today xD IM SO ELATEDD it's uncomprehendable how i can be so happy after screwing up big time BUT HEY! it's really worth celebrating yo? & btw i find it really laugh-able tt i willingly gave 6 marks away for bio due to carelessness on my part at t essay qn & so in t end, i wasted a page worth of pen ink to get a measly 2 marks kinda coz there were 5 factors shown in t pic and we were supp to ans with relation to 4 i failed to notice t 5th factor, choosing only 1 to write on LMAO! Sunday, August 17, 2008 so screwedd im finally upadating again xD had been fighting t urge to for quite awhile coz i simply had to FORCE myself to study. [lk OMG?! YINGTING ACTUALLY STUDIES?!] oh wow. ofcoz not.. i mean.. it's more of stoning in front of t pile of notes & so well, IM SO GNA SCREW UP absolutely. Chem's tmr & yea. WOW followed by BIO&MATH it aint good at all, & it not gna be good given my attitude but yet again, who cares? kinda looking forward to tues coz i gna go shopping aft tt two dumb papers while t rest are mugging their guts out for physics. i mean, yea.. i wont be able to finish studying for BIO&MATH-obviously so y mope over t failure of these two papers? toolaalaa i gna go entertain myself while staring at chem file now at least I TRIED [tt was in a moment of self denial] Thursday, August 14, 2008 hey dere NAUGHTY girl! common tests started today & im sososososo screwed not literally of coz. but still, it gna suck ssP2 was a total sucker went to mit t tanglin peeps ytd and played a lil too much i supp anyway i aint gna be in study mood w/o them so wells... it's just tt i screwed up for t paper. best of luck to me(: english paper was.. no comments.. i didn finish t bloody 9marks summary GAWDD hung out with WJ and has whooping fun xpxp & im sososo dead now coz ive yet to study.. or at least, ive yet to study much damns.. ive got no self control im so becoming a bad gal these days kinda addicted to doing outta-t-world kinda things shall not specify but well, they aint healthy activities for sure & im so freaking addicted to... Monday, August 11, 2008 i hate this coz i still love u though im trying real hard not to it's total dumbness it has to be u instead of one of t others. it's lk WOW. they're doing evt they can to keep me in check & happy & ure t one who.. nvms wont u get it? it's u no matter what u say ohfk im contradicting myself again Sunday, August 10, 2008 t start of a new chapter yupps i aint gna say it's t end coz it aint gna be even though we've officially left NP, well, to be precise, RVNP 2 days ago [sry im still a unit-ist] 4 yrs of being sqdm8s has changed us alot and let us c how much one another changed. from aquaintances to SQDM8s, it has indeed taken us alot yea? flashbacks of how we were, how we used to be and t tymes we had tgt just keep coming and i dont suppose i will evr forget them sure we had our differences but they're what makes THEEXTREMISTS *grins* anyway, we'll always be a sqd no matter what rites?(: i love u peepo loads & yes, im grateful to all of u for making NP bearable dont kill me ut NP has nv been my ideal cca & if it werent for all of u, i wldn have bothered going for cca [heh! yt is still tt dumb, stubborn ass aft 4 yrs rite?!] DONT SO PISSED FIRST LA! AIYO! i gna leave each of u a msg leh! not on t blog but on paper la.. but i think i gna be real laggy at getting to it goddamns.. i really dno how to put my thots across. im sry this post's so crappified. i just dowanna share this feeling with t world :X it's all reserved for my EXTREMISTS(: thx juniors for t memorable ROD it was great! & ohyes, good luck with NP life as NCOs and NCOs to be! cherish t moments tgt as a sqd ya? Wednesday, August 06, 2008 somehow, im just wishing for ... was kinda being a good gal in school today thx to tt stingray who kept me in check xpxp gaaaaa it's lk soooooooo long since t last tyme i attended lessons w/o t "im-so-hating-u" look feels kinda weird as a result of t sudden change danggg hope tardtardtard's btr now damns.. tt noti gal's so worrying IM TALKING ABT U MICHELLE PAN MEISHAN [c.. ur name is up here again] rest well ya? I WANT UR COMPANY BACK IN SCHOOL SOON! & we all care so u must tc of urself as well loves. SS assingment's due tmr and ive yet to do it congratulate me coz i doubt it gna be done by tonight cant seem to get t mood i Tuesday, August 05, 2008 cause it's a promise to myself nobody gna be able to make me do what i dont want to which was y i skipped t first half day of school today lalas seriously, who wld give up slp for school =X tard^3 wasn in school today MUST TC HORH GAL! damnx.. i dno what im thinking of now i just feel lk cryingg cause it's a promise to myself nobody gna be able to make me do what i dont want to which was y i skipped t first half day of school today lalas seriously, who wld give up slp for school =X tard^3 wasn in school today MUST TC HORH GAL! damnx.. i dno what im thinking of now i just feel lk cryingg Sunday, August 03, 2008 im sry im a loser im fulgy im stupid im dumb in all, i suck Saturday, August 02, 2008 inSANITY hee! recently, statistics have shown tt more ppl have been telling me to quit being so crazy or asking if im mad. kinda wondering if it's true but well, i still dont know y. but.. im alrd trying so hard to kip myself sane alrd! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAA damnit. well, i guess it's btr to confess tt im slighty on t insane side=X awww anyway today was fun with doing proj and slacking with naty at jel ended up reserving books and looking tru pics of capital punishment ans stuff lk tt kinda not-very-fruitful considering tt we spent 5 hrs dere but it was fun yea? -grins lk a pig- HOHOHO & I FORGOT TO MENTION THIS! i (purposely) failed my NAPFA retest coz i was still greatly unhappy at having to retake it simply coz t school wants awards & ive alrd passed t first time round.. [i still am pissed off btw] cld have gotten a silver this tyme round too but well.. i cant be bothered as usual besides, my points aint as gd as t previous test so HECK! u wldn wna noe wad i failed i was totally laughing myself nuts over it coz.. I FAILED SIT AND REACH hilarious! aint my fault i decided tt i wanted to fail this test so i cld kip t previous results a wee bit too late & it's just my luck tt i realised tt i was left with sit-and-reach so well.. i sat on tt thing and refused to bend all t way down on pretext of laughing too hard and trying to prevent leg cramps much to t displeasure of t person in charge of tt station -shrugs- as a result, i ACHIEVED a result of 16cm and t wish to fail t test!*winks* it was quite a laugh i suppose but well.. who cares? it's all part of t fun HAHAHAHAHA...! ps For those who think tt im a total failure trying to justify y i failed, i missed t 5points by a mere 1cm t other tyme & have been doing well in this station all t while |
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