nth worth believing in

a veryveryvery lame day.
supposed study day.

accounting cui. french also cui.
wasted $ buy mc to take french retest instead >(

golden mile for dinner.
with th dearest boy<3

havent been updating for soooooo long have i? xD
just didnt see th point of my usual lamenting abt school cause it still sucks -as always.
ssm's still th bitch, accounting still sucks. & everything else is o.O

"reconnected" w ppl i havent seen in aaaages is =D
Jerby(jervis), Pipi(dorv)
mmm..

& thutthuts and i hung out ytd at sentosa xD
C+chocolate makes me a happyhappy girl.
many mmrs.

Random:
hugs made me feel lk there's smth holding me tgt so i wun fall apart.

我好希望你能在我身边,好希望自己能有勇气告诉我要做你永远的唯一.
可是, 我不能答应你什么也知道自己可能不是你想要的.

proj time. to finish by 10

super big rawrs..
i hate school but...
super determined to just pass ssm. if not.. hell round 2.
just that it wldn be cause of th tchers that i have to face all over again in sem 4.1
it gna be from my parents. cause ive alr made up my mind to leave tp for sp just so that i will nt step into tt dreaded TCA building for lessons again.

proj's screwed. think we wont do very well actually.
ahwell.. just try our best i supp..

& love's complicated.
i wish i cld read P lk a book so i knw what he's thinking of & give him what he wants lk i used to be able to "read" my ex bfs.
oops.. sorry to th recent few.. i just refused to try understanding after a rs w someone...
i wish baby knw me earlier. he cldve gotten th "better me" instead of th slut he's getting now.
but yet again, he wldn be one i wldve bothered w if we met earlier.

sigh

alone.

in lucky plaza mac.
wanted to get some work done before heading home but im really too tired>(
guess it's partly my mood.
BESE test and TTO proj part 1 due next week.
i think there's smth else but i just cant rmb tho it feels lk it's impt.
screw it.

all i wna do now is to burrow myself in P's embrace.
i wnt P to hold me and tell me evt's fine, jy.
even if P were to just say "nevermind la dear. i give u hugs", i gna be really happy.
i miss t days we go hme tgt aft work.

stupidnonsensicalchildishidioticme

HELLOHELLOHELLO!
ivnt been updating have i? good thing i dun have many readers hohoho!

week has been generally just a wee bit btr thn sucky.
think cause nxt week gna be worse >.<
tell me what im sup to do for ssm test ok? & uhms.. french test?
-.- =(

anw, i only rmb failing grooming at ssm on mon (knnbccb) & movie on thurs and friday fun.
watched IpMan2 w dear & i was bullying him after tt w all sorts of weirdweird qns @Hanis outside NL. Baby bought me gummies <3

Was supp to meet A,C & J after forever @ cine for ironman2 but i was late so i told them to go ahead w/0 me.
cldn get a cab & whn i finally got one, t uncle drove me to kallang.
I TOLD HIM CINELEISURE, HE REPEATED & halfway tru asked me LEISUREPARK rite when he heard me mention cine over t phone.
i was totally lk thinking WTF.
& tmd his attitude sucked ttm. his fault still give me cb attitude halfway (puhhlease... laoniang paying u to drive me to where im going, i missed a move cause of u so WHO T FUCK ARE U TO GIVE ME ATTITUDE?) decided against complaining cause im too lazy to.

ended up meeting Thuts @ skatepark. i swear i gna learn skateboarding cause i gna get to see cute lil angmoh boys skate.
there was this kid who asked his friend "can u snap this (his skateboard) for me? my mum said she gna get me a new one when this one snaps." i totally LOLed cause t way he said it was in t "mama, u think i can go out to play pleeeease? i helped u wash t dishes ytd" kinda voice.

dinnered w Jane (thx for accompanying me!) @ xinwang after their movie.
met Thuts again after tt and we ended up walking to somewhere near fortcanning & SMU.
just a random place to chat.
he sent me hme aft playing w cats somewhere near my house xD
tt guy totally carried t cat lk a baby. CUTE! i mean t cat-.-
nice..
but not so nice..

KH FASTER COME BACK!
feels weird not to talk to u everyday!! XD

ssm. bad feeling. kill me.

twinkles(: i dont have to attend th wedding anymore but nt w/o pissing my dad off.
ahwells.. i rather face his wrath than 对不起我自己.
imagine abt 4hrs plus of torture! tsk..
pretty much prepared to be "marked down" by th influencial, or in my opinion, obnoxious aunt and uncle. laoniang dun effing care.
shall just tell them i have a holy appointment if they mention anth on CNY2011.

told my mum tt im serious abt nt going w them when i woke up this morning.
she insisted i told my dad myself so i called him.
pretty pissed w her. they were tgt.
& MY DAD THOUGHT I WAS JUST THROWING TANTRUMS & WOULD GO AT TH END ALL THIS WHILE!
fcking hilarious. in fact, im gloating over having made t point tt im serious whn i say i want to do smth(:
thankgod again that i didn give in on this.

anw, called dad and told him i wun be going cause i'll be heading to t temple & thn t library to study (actually if u consider reading books studying.. well! i'll be trying to understand t story based on th context it was set right?).
he raised his voice at me and went lk "U TOMORROW GOT TEST NEED TO STUDY UH?"
me: no?got ppl say must have test thn study meh?
him: DONT HAVE TEST U STUDY FOR WHAT
me: u'll be damn unhappy if i wait till i have test thn study lo (considering what he used to scream at me abt last min studying/ reading when ive tests instead of studying, what i say is still true right?)
and while he continued screaming, i went lk 人家好好跟你讲你就好好听咯!要大呼小叫吗?
he got damn dulan but well.. at least he finally understood that if he were to continue screaming i'll scream back.

tralala.. damn shuang now.
dont knw wads wrong w me recently. dnt knw whats wrong w them too..
bent on making me conform to their wishes. slowly wait..

cheebehs.. i sound lk a chao ahlian.
fk it.. since it's lk tt alr, knnbccb

你始终还是不懂我的心, 不懂我要的是一个会守护着我的人.

heading out for work & some alone time soon.

i wonder how im going to screw up at work again

yting l.

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