nth worth believing in

this post gna be long i think.
& u pple gna think im a bitch by the end of it.
and my victim?
a guy with brain size inversely propor. to his size

apparently, this large conspicuous guy got my sqdm8s to collect our lifesaving certs from him and he didn turn up.
so my poor darlings had to wait for him, going late for cip as a result.
however, tt guy with an ego as large as himself decides tt it's not his fault but theirs.

ladies and gentlemen, welcome.
i hereby present to u the content of our msgs.
i apologise for my bad english due to convenience.
pls do not hesitate from laughing at me.[ hey, im bitching HIM]
reading the msgs, u wud have found dozens of mistakes. e a s i l y.
i aint kidding

Me: it aint very polite to ps pple y'noe? i supp u dont

Him: sry ya got family things cock up so ya sorry
(cock up? wad do u mean?)

Me: Cld hav informed. it wldn be as bad as wasting ppl's time. it's not lk they dont have btr things to do
(wanted to add "den getting traumatised by the thot of seeing u and vomiting)

Him:Sry but indeed u all cld find uncle joe even if i nt ard
(wth. uncle joe ignored them. and u didn tell us ok?)

Me: They had no idea the cert cldbe collected from uncle joe. if not they wldn have
wasted precious seconds waiting for u lk durh
(im sur i remembered u told yueting not to be late as time is precious. "seconds" was used to show how he isn worth even a bit of time)

Him: ok but at least they could call me or ck when they izit able to find me
(so it's our fault now.. interesting. i supp being fat gives him an edge when it comes to unbashfulness. & what does he mean by "izit able to find me?)

Me: wad a cheek. Is it not common sense or at the very least basic manners to inform others if u cant make it?

Him: ok i knew tt but is too last min thing as i gt the news this morning and its urs instinct to call when wait for 5min or more
(wow.. it just so isnt his fault. and look at the phrasing. it's amazing how i understood him. btw, isit tt hard to sms? im sure tt research has shown sms to be a powerful communication tool tt is used most of the time. it must have been pretty user friendly to be used so much, even by ppl in the working society)

Me: Is it not taught to u tt u r supp to update ppl upon receiving news? besides i dont think my sqm8s wld lk hearing ur voice so early in the morning
( so i decided to teach him some manners.. though i admit im pretty much bitchy myself)

Him: tt is ur sqdm8s probs as u must get the pic tt is not want or nt to hear my voice
(what does he mean? anyway it's pretty obvious he cldn understand me. when i strongly feel tt i am so much easier to understand)

Me: Haha. i was suanning u. im sure its intellectual understanding tt sms-ing will not take more than 30 secs
(so i decided to help him in comprehending..)

Him: by the way u sms me i can tell tt u have no idea of what i am saying
(tell me, who cld have understood him when reading his msgs the FIRST time.. maybe i sld apologise to him for not being able to see his point. but can u?)

Me: Language is a tool to be used properly. Substandard skills will only result in miscommunication. interpret tt.

Him: Halo plz bear tt in mind tt for a person to speak a good english is simple english
( sighs. i pity him for he still doesn get it and continues to make a joke outta himself. correct me if im wrong but "A english"?)

Me: Simple english can be understood if it is standard english, or at the very least, singlish tt isn substandard to the extent tt it is uncomprehendable.
(laughs at him again.. i noe im bad. but at least i minced my words. at least i refrained from asking him to screw his own pathetic brains. at least.. im nice xp)

Him: and all my words are simple but u dun realli understand ok
(tell me again.. what/how am i supp to understand?)

Him:HEY YINGTING FOR GOD SAKE PLZ READ MY MSG AGAIN IS TT I AM TELLING U HOW TO BE A BTR PERSON, I KNOW TT I FORGOT TO TELL U GUYS BUT BEAR IN MIND TT U ALL SLD HAVE THE INITIAL TO CALL ME WHEN U ALL CANT FIND ME.
(oops! i made him angry. but what on earth is he trying to say again? humans have initiative but not INITIAL to take actions. i think my sqdm8s' hps do not have enough memory space to save his contacts too. it's simply too BIG. and erm, so he's implying it's our fault yet again i supp)

Me: And i am encouraging the use of btr english
(if he is encouraging me to be a btr person-although i dont think he has told me on how to improve myself-, i feel i ought to help him out too!)

Him:For ur own sake plz reflect on urself i nt replying any msg again from u
(wow.. big shot.. lk who is he to ask me to reflect on myself? he wronged my sqdm8s first. he can try reflecting on what he did wrong instead of pushing the blame on my innocent darlings in my opinion)

Me: reflect on ur english. be my guest coz i dont feel the pity
(being nice, i decided to help him again. and being a bitch, i... y'all noe wad i did)

Him: i will be proud to be ur guest and plz talk to ur darling nick and stop smsing me as u r a pain in my ass
( i thot he said he aint gna reply? wads he doing? proving tt he cant understand himself? how can he blame me for not understanding him thn? sighs.. i pity him.. and i fear for spore's future with ppl lk him arnd.
and again, he sms-ed me first. doesn make sense. first he says he aint gna reply. den he replied. and he tells me to stop smsing him?wads with this guy?!
point 3, i am a pain in his ass? what gentlemanly language)

Me: and u lost it again. proven me right
(yea. i was thinking he wld insult me directly soon & he did. no standards wadsoever. at least i minced my words)

Him: as i am not free to entertain u
(pardon me but what is he getting at again? i truely wonder)

-the end-

so what do y'all think?
i must admit tt this source is biased coz yea, i haven got a strong liking towards him at all and the ppl involved are my sqdm8s but wells..

nvms.
i shall conclude tt he is dumb.
& im a bitch

just pick up the fone wud ya?
i've still got so much more to say to u,
so much more i wna noe

i wna hear ur voice real bad
u promised u gna be dere for me always
so where r u when i am crying real bad?
where's the guy who will nv hesitate "hugging" me, letting me cry "on his shoulder" when i'm down?

im so f-king confused now
im sry for swearing but i cant help it
i feel lk screaming out loud
i wna hate u for doing this but it's so freaking hard to.
just tell me wad to do

it's just lk me to give up without a fight
my first thoughts will always be
"why bother when it won't change anything?"
it's just so typical of me.
so expected..
-end-

school today suck-d full time.
i was asked to ans questions TWICE coz i was caught falling aslp
damns..

chem test tday wasn anymuch btr
I SO FREAKING LOST 9MARKS ON AN EASY PAPER.
dont ask me how i do it.
i dno.
geez.

last my not least, my 2.4 timing was a total loser.
13.37
just didn have the mood to run
so i walked a total dist of abt 1.5 rounds.
tts lk 600metres.

sqdm8s all did well i suppose(;
so it's just me among the "runners" who didn hit 11+ or 12 mins
it was just so freaking hot i refused to chiong la
end up still perspired so much.
TSK!
irritating..
i'm so not gna re-run nxt week though mich jie thinks i sld
AND i dont quite fancy having an oh-so-common timing.
just dont have a good impression on 2.4
caused me to havta wear the super unglamourous ankle supp.
RAWRS.

& the one&only gd thing today was cca.
hehs.
ran with sec1 sqd for pt(=
think i was ABIT too fierce thoughh
pt was darn funny
out of 4 ppl taking, 3 had injured ankle
so we were SUPER slowwww

SHYTs.
my posts are getting more and more boring.
shall post agn when i've got the inspiration to

i'm weak.
im seriously crying too damn easily
& i hate it.

i dont get why i always have to lose smth to treasure it
worse still, i only treasure a person when i lose him/her

he's leaving
yet i'm still holding back
dere's so much more i wna say to him but i choose to keep quiet bout them.
it's just funny the way i do things.

i dont understand too(;

maybe im angry tt he didn tell me earlier?
maybe i dont dare to tell him coz im afraid i will just cry all over again.
maybe-s

& maybe that's y i act as though im not at all bothered.
im a joke

i'm lost
seriously wonder what i am doing
it's lk..
ive been becoming weirder and weirder.
eccentric.
wishing for things that will nv happen makes me feel lk a dummy
same goes to the unacceptable attraction towards a certain person.
my strange desires..
sighs

are all these merely my way of coping with life?
im reallie stressed now.
over my emotions, studies and friends
im not a machine.
even if i am one, machines need rest too.

been listening to a song lately.
replaying it over and over again.
it just makes me think of sqdm8s

heys ppl,
yingting loves u all ok?
even if i may not continue on with u ppl
i will still love u all lots(=

it's a promise

cc comp was ytd
& we made it(:
perhaps not to the finals, but certainly to the point where by we can say we are proud of ourselves.

details of the comp gna be kept close to my heart
not gna go into detail of wad happn here.
plain memorable and embarrassing

currently experiencing the stress of hwk
-,-
life's more den tt i'm sure..

hellos world(:

was thinking of the reason y i was so emo the past few days
and aft much pondering, i realised it was due to my progress report.

ROFL

i know it seems lk a total joke.
me emoing over results?
impossible.
yet it's happening.

my horrendous results.
yupps.
the subjects i try working hard at all gave me sucky results.
GREAT

but on a lighter note, read the tcher's comments and have a gd laugh
[at my expense u notii ppl]
xp

funny the way ZHW(chinese tcher) described me
tsk
everyone was laughing la
no image liao..

[ok. since when did i have a gd image]

anyway to those who didn make it,
JIAYOU!

why cant i just do it?

just given up on doing hwk
the first sentence explains it all
hahas.
thinking back, it's funny how much i've changed over these years

1. from teachers' pet to teachers' headache
2. obedient, quiet girl to rebellious freak
3. top few students to top few from the bottom
4. faithful to flirtatious
5. a person who stays at home most of the time to a person who hangs out till as late as possible

i wna be lk how i was last tyme
simple-minded i suppose..
and easily contented

weekends in the past were spent at playgrounds or shopping malls with my grandaunt
not tt much of my parents as they help out at my grandpa's shop
the way i wld hurry to prepare to go out
the way my grandaunt help tie my hair into plaits
memories.
i rmb choosing the soft toy(s) i wna bring out with me
seems pretty silly but well..

hahas
wondering why i actually bother typing all these crap down
-,-
they are simply memories

rawrr
i miss Jeffrey daddy:(

he & his random RAWRS on msn
& the way he complains tt i sms/call piggy bro den nv call him
lk so LOL

I WANT DADDY

ok..
im crazy la
but this daddy of mine's seriously worrying lo

super sad now..
coz of hwk, i cant do stuffies tt i want!
haha.
NVMS! i must promise myself to jy nxt week

& for now chiong hwk and maths test
haha
if i can ever psycho myself to lo.
blehs

& i just cant get myself at times

i cant understand how i cld have fallen aslp while doing phys assignment
wasted one whole freaking hour
im lk so pissed off with myself now..
HEY!
it's 1 hr ok..
i cld have completed he qns i knew how to do and moved on to chem
yet i had to fall aslp living in a world of some senseless dreams

WAKE UP GAL
the hols are ending soon
in less thn two days, u gna have to be back at sch
u gna be taking attendance for the class, updating the management diary......
& u gna be fretting over the tests again

soon..
u gna have to do ur midyrs
so wad r u doing now?!
slping when u r doing ur hwk.

G R E A T
serves you right if u fail
u deserve to get retained yea
what's wrong with ur attitude.
yes
tell me what's wrong with my attitude

i tried changing but it doesn seem to help
somehow or another i keep falling back to the way i was last time
towards studies, towards guys

everything
i cant say i give up
with all thse ppl helping me, i cant
but i want to

tell me what to do.

emo.

dont ask why

tell me im intelligent(;

u guys won't believe it but well..
it took me nearly my whole NP lifeto realise tht p.Ubin isn Singapore..
at least for the fone lines.
ROFL
4 FREAKING YEARS

just updating before going for bio remedial
i'm a good girl(:
[just dont remind me tt im running late wud ya? i cant resist using the com la]
wonder wad we gna do..
perhaps Mrs Lim wud kill me coz i didn hand in my practical
Sry Mrs Lim =x

& HEYS!
HOLS ARE NEARLY OVER!
I MUST REALLY PRAISE MYSELF FOR BEING SO INTELLIGENT I CANT PLAN MY TIME PROPERLY..
homework..
gettit?
noe wad i mean?
yes.
my hwk's not completed.
not to mention the fact tt dere's math test on mon.

goodluck to the intelligent gal [me]
hehx

i'm sorry darling.
sorrysorrysorry..
i guess i'm being a total bitch bout this
i didn mean to screw up
& i didn want this to happen

i reallie wanted this to work out
somehow i was just so plain dumb i dno wad's wrong with me

i guess i just aint good enough for a guy lk u
sorry if i hurt u
& thx for being so understanding as always yea
tt's was i've always loved about u xP

sorry darling..
loves

i feel so bad..
becoz of me, my cousin went for tt chc service
becoz of me again, my cousin had to accept Christ
becoz of me yet again, due to tt incident, she has been constantly harrassed by aunty christine to go for bible studies etectc

RAWRS
wads wrong with everythingg?
lk it's so freaking obvious she dont wna go den DONT FORCE HER la!
noe i sldn be saying this but well..
yea..
i mean u dont call ppl at weird hours of the days to "catch up with them"
or to be constantly sms-ing ppl when it's so darn obvious they dont wanna reply rites?
thn when u cant reach her, u call me and scare the hell outta me.
GG

currently confusedd
i'm still clinging on to the past
i thought i had let go but i have not and cant
freakk..
i'm constantly comparing and comparing

maybe dere's a lesson to be learnt tru this but i dont wna learn it?
=x

dont ever be sad agn coz it gna make me sad too alrights?

so many things happened recently tt i haven updated abt
hmm..
seriously dno where to start now>,<
brief summary perhaps?

Sunday-0203
went for the veryveryvery first service in my lyfe
it was fun & yet freaky.
surrounded by a bunch of aunties?
lk scary la
at least for the anti-social me

mon-0303
HAPPY BDAY PIG BRO(J.Yap)
hohos
this guy ar..
bully me sia
xp
had math test aft school
so gna fail lah
as usual....

MICHELLE PAN MEI SHAN (TARD^3) HAS AN EXOTIC FAMILY HISTORY
HOHOHO

& finally,
TODAY-0403
nth much>,<
lessons, cca
ya lo
lessons were bearable other thn the fact tt cpk suan-ed me
den i had to resist the urge to go toilet coz zhw was teaching until so shuang i dare not ask her=x
sms-ed super pig in class & he laughed at me!!
RAWRR
but i still adore tt pig lo!

cca wasn btr
totally no mood during trgn
kinda missing superpig den lk super emo lo
=xx
dont think so far..
TSK

-general(random) stuff-
the way me & him is lk now is far too much lk the way we started
it's weird.
& it brings back memories
i dno & dowanna noe.
just tc.
i gna let go

to my dear superpig(=
thx fer always being there for me
haha. u horh... always make me laugh de lor!
oinkoink!
u always brighten my day
if not for u i wld have been crying over the math test ytd
somehow seeing ur msgs nv fails to make me smile
=D
OINKING ALL THE WAY WORH xP

just showed my chem test paper to my mum and dad
dno lah
the results were disappointing..
but they acted happy tt i passed
lk it was satisfactory
i dont wna just pass
it's not enough for me
& i noe it isn enough for them as well
just tt they dowanna stress me out
thx mummy & daddy.

yting l.

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