nth worth believing in

desperate to hear his voice after so long.
oh well.. next week, i hope.
& it seems so far away..

ytd was 4th mth w jw, first day working in club chinos & first tyme i killed myself over gift wrapping (no thanks to clarine).
HAHAS! yea.. th last point. YINGTING GIFT-WRAPPED FOR CLARINE SIM.
im so nice! hahahs! giftwrapping at voiddeck was fun tho(: laughter-filled xD makes me veryveryvery happy despite missing wee loads.
first day at work was -.- though. dont hate it. dont lk it either.

thinking of wad tyme to go to school ltr to get my certs &&&!
pass present to mrliu! xD
but im kinda nervous. dont feel lk stepping into tt place despite leaving for so long alr.
heading jb again. this tyme w mum, aunt &cous. hope it gna be fun ^^

rawrs bii.. thot i cld finally hear ur voice after so long bt.. hmms..
nvm. shall miss u for a few mre days.
i wna noe...
that im impt to u
that we gna still be tgt th next mth
&.. tt we gna be tgt always.
iloveyouthoughikindastoppedshowingitthatmuchalr.

to all th guys out dere:
i'm sorry if i stopped replying u or entertain u only when i feel lk it.
ure just not him.
sorry for being a bad fren but too bad.

sashimi in th rain(:
i wish u were here with me.

2 papers tmr.
screwed. im not even done w studying for one.
screw both. fked up exam timetable.

unhappy.
i dont lk things so screwed. srsly..*rolls eyes*

looking.forward.to.th.end.of.exams.

现在真的好难过哦!希望考完试后心情会快乐些.
我一直在问自己"复习了又怎样? 我什么都记不起." 真的很想放弃,但又不想也不可
你在的话,现在应该会一直提醒我专心吧..
我又想太多了.. 整天设想这些无畏的东西影响自己的情绪然后抱bearbear<3哭,真的有点没用>.<

bii=(

我真的很想你, 却只能一个人默默的在房里落泪.

baby, it's been soooo long since we last talked properly.

hellos ppl(: im posting again in my kuku state.
brains kinda screwed. stuck at unemployment. gg-fied xD
anws th ghostie month is here. WOOOHHH~
wondering abt th economics dere xD

w. ppl burning large amts of $$,

there will be increase in money supply in their dimension.
they can play more mahjong and gamble cause interest rate decreases(go pok nvm, can borrow. 30th day return can le)

with more money to spend, theywill tend to purchase more.
increase in demand for goods and services. DEMAND-PULL INFLATION. i wonder how much a shirt cost for them now lor! large influx of $$. another zimbabwe perhaps?
wonders what their central banks doing.. sure headache one.. fiscal policies wont really work rite? since they dun need increased labour force or limit production capacity dere.. hmm..
nevermind! i think things will iron out when th fest ends. next yr continue xP

exchange rate (eg tw ghosties and sg ghosties)
since tw stuffs are cheaper, there will be higher demand for tw goods in sg. this will lead to higher qty of tw's $$ demanded. value of money over in tw appreciates.

im too lazy to go on. they wun use tariffs, quotas etc i think..
back to my last min studying.
wish me th best of luck coz im fxking screwed-,-

dont know wad's wrong w me.
i keep doing th wrong stuffs these days.
gotta stop it. ive learnt enough for now.

econs tmr. kill me.
if i screw up again, im screwed.
yet i deserve to screw up for th effort i put in.

wish me luck
& thx Uncle Raymond for encouraging me(: i'm touched, really

sucks.
called dearest just now.
dont know if he's tired, angry w me for staying out late or simply not in th mood.
it's pretty hard having to face up to this but i really dont understand him despite all this tyme.
i suck as a gf, i knw.

& boy, im sry.
i wish im overreacting but it sucks not being able to read u lk i cld w th others.
gives me a deep sense of insecurity idk why.
dont wna be lk any other gal. i wna be able to understand u but idk how to.
it's not alright.
i'm nt being silly. it's been bugging me since t convo th last tyme abt this.

ytsucks.

back to blog.
& it's bad cause ive yet to get studying done. no mood to. im so dead.
bii's gna scold me for being crazy but im missing him sososo much.
i hate it when im lk tt:(
cant help worrying tt he gna break up w me over th same thing again.
damns. yting's going crazy.

bad start.
fell aslp unknowingly, overslept.
there goes wdv bit of mood ive got to study etc.
ec's screwed. dont know wad's going on, forgot evt else.
oh-so-motivating.

silly bf's been naughty.
stayed up waiting for his call(tt was how i even fell aslp LOL)and he didn=(
but th msg which "threatened" not talking to me if i gave up made me smile.
so typical of tt BAKA to say such stuffs which surprisingly works in making me go on.
RAWR U LA BII! so mean to me!! hmphffs

waiting for michelle.|
she's so nice rite? acc me after school xD
WAKAKAKAKA! propee made me laugh lots lk a kuku ytd too!
bii! see! ppl so nice unlike u xP

so very moody and tired lately.
not in th mood to study. im mre to th "time-for-bed" side of th mood scale.
screwedd XD

precious bf thot i was ignoring him/ dont want him alr coz i didn reply.
>( eews. stupid bii.
& so im broke nw. coz i topped up.
I WANT EXAMS TO BE OVER SO I CAN WORK ALR!
rawrs..

& im contemplating working at fish&co as well.
th pay's like higher thn banquet and it's less tough lor!
anw, i think i need multiple jobs.
get me a genie pls!
i'll wish th remaining mths past in a fast forward mode alth tyme still seems to go on "normally"
thn i will wish for

i finally dl-ed firefox just to view a fren's blog.
LMAO.

& im missing him.
PROPEE DUN JEALOUS. i miss u too hor!

ive got truckloads of unglam fotos now xD
makes me laugh just looking at them tho i can imagine peeps going lk "eww. wtf is wrong with tt ugly ______"
great memories behind those pics alrights? ^^

as long as i dont look lk tt in my wedding pics... LMAO
im thinking toooo much.

study. not.

ive half given up and th other half's in hibernation.
'll most probably regret ltr on.

hmms..
im a lil upset. but i dont know over what exactly

im sorry i overreacted.
hopefully evt really gna be fine by th sept meetup.

cause dere's not much of a diff whether i give up or not.

congratulate me for th major screwups.
& for being able to keep so much to myself(:
just a lil too tired to explain everything bothering me.

stubborness is really affecting me.
i said i wldn call & so i refused to much as im super tempted to pick up 910i and dial.
i so wna hear ur voice, let u make me laugh but i guess im just too-freaking-stubborn.
eews. baby, i miss u.

baby i miss you=(
seems lk ure th one who's really there all th while.
u were dere when i was with him, saw me tru th rough times and dere to keep me in control when we got tgt.
keep it this way pls?

i so wna conjure u up now if i cld.
i'll be contented to just teleport u here for a hug before teleporting u back again>.<
RAWRS! im such a silly girl.
& i wna be ur silly girl always(:

BII! CAN U PLS MAKE TIME PASS FASTER?!
if not fly me over luhhs.. i reallyreallyreally wna see u sooooooon>(

dont know what to do/ think.
it's tiring too, having to face up to such stuff when i thot tt all was fine.
maybe i sldve known it wldn blow over tt simply.
perhaps love & frenship aint meant to coexist at all, much as it wld be perfect tt they cld.
i'll be lying if i said im not disappointed.
i just dont know if it's in myself or in u.both i suppose.

my fault? not?
ahwells. fk it.
in any case,
im really sorry i let u down, letting th incident happen.

yes it takes time. & maybe it gna be for th best tt evt's consigned to th past.
i mean th friendship & all cause things won't ever be th same.

im sooooo tired.
*yawns* attending rht lab th first thing in th morning aint helping much >.<
im so not coping well with th lack of slp.RAWR
it's making me damn grumpy.

CS presentation ltr.
im so gna do badly.screwedd..
kinda on th urge of starting a vulgar spam.

ihatethstress.argh

oh hellos(:
just back from msia. nth much from th shops.
but, FOOD xD

aww.. im sooo much fatter now.
rawrs.
sleepy.. CS presentation prep to be done. grrr...

ytd was work day.
& i just realised banquet isnt easy at all.
double rawrs for th embarrassment.
i so gna have to learn to be less clumsy.
#1 was lagging behind th waiter in front of me coz i nearly dropped my shoe
#2 i cant balance th plate
#3 fell at th table while aerving th first dish. [lk wtf. i scared th ppl dere]
#4 nearly sent a fish head and spoon flying @ th same table.
#5 put th bowls on th table instead of th turnturn susan >.<

but one good thing(:
got to know mre pple. hope to know jackson btr coz he was sooo nice and patient in helping me along. & th guy at th bar who kept disturbing me coz he knew of my unglam fall. of coz, deres this tp gal (i dno how to spell her name) who's super chio and sweet(:

so looking forward to working again.
& i really wna do it well alr, sooner or later.
though my hand's aching from balancing th trays etc LOL!

my silly boy must be thinking tt his gal's neglecting him coz she went off to shop in msia uh!
no ohkay! i was so totally missing u luhhs>.< half-emoed while listening to music th whole day, wondering what ure up to & if ure alright. i want my CHEERS CARD so we can chat over th phone again. miss me alright?
& bii.. I WNA DEMAND TT U ACC ME TO MSIA! lalas!
u cant give th excuse tt we're still too young to travel on our own uh! u said we still got lots of time(:
hees.. btr not be regretting this promise horh! if nt i gna bite u real hard xD

off for midnight movie w bro in 40mins.
killed a freaking big roach a& left myself to suffocate in th room 15mins ago.
murdered myself(& my gpa)in CS summative test this morning.
fell in love with a dog and mokey a few days ago

but,
im missing u all th while, loving u since that day.

baby, it feels lk we're drifting apart alr.
had a dream which i'll nv wna make true.
im really afraid of losing u.
i dont want history repeating itself. that time was enough.

tell me u love me still.
let me know ur feelings haven't faded.

is it any wonder that im gna do frigging badly tmr?
shouldn it be only expected that i gna havta sit for th retest?
lmao.

been up to random stuffs lately.
& i dno y im always so tired. damns..
i gna stop worrying abt evt & live my life as it is.
dont really feel lk bothering abt other stuffs alr. dearest was right.. i used to care & worry too much abt things tt doesnt concern me.
im tired alr. at least, im tired of caring, of trying in many things.
[ive got so much more to say but it gna hurt alot of peeps so i gna shut up abt this now

i wish u cld be here now.
i need u to control me lk u used to. im getting out of hand, really.
& i want u to hold on to me no matter what.
dont let us drift apart alrights?

ellos(: im finally updating. from recent to recent-est xD
Fri: dinner w momok, 10 and propee @ bugis after hours of rushing for a late assignment submission.
AJISEN! and thn home-d with propee.
she stayed over cause we caught a midnight mooviee ^^

sat & sun sucked to th max.
it was proj and proj and yea. screw it.
a wasted weekend.
slept at 645 on mon after microsoft word decided to crash on me for some reasons unknown to myself.
was late for school coz i overslept as a result of th "early-morning" sleep.

I SO SWEAR THAT I WILL NOT BE TH COLLATOR FOR ANY OTHER PROJS THIS YEAR.
& in the next year, th most im gna take on is to be th collator for 1 or 2 projs in each sem.
(:

late for rht as usual.
coursework grades to be revealed next week. guess im screwed.
lalaS!

tired. im wondering if im ever gna get to slp since it's 4.11 alr.
still trying to edit th whole thing and get my part done.
most lkly, im gna be skipping lecture to catch some slp before haeding to school for 11am tutorial.

baby, im missing u sooo much now.
& i realised i really wna say thankyou for being th best i ever had(: remembering and knowing tt im always right dere in ur heart cheered me up loads when i was so close to tears from all tt stress.
loves<3

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