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Sunday, January 20, 2008
loads of stuff happened recently making me feel lk a complete loser. simply for having such strong faith in things i used to believe it. everything ended up only to be part of the fairytale i have been living in. sqdmates: it's seriouslydriving me crazy the way u guys can quarrel over even the smallest mistakes. is it too much to ask for u all to accept one another? it has been 3 yrs for goodness sake. are the bonds so fragile that even simple misunderstandings can cause u all to wna fall out with one another? what about the memories we had together? dont they mean anth at all? i'm not saying it's anyone's fault. it's just tt i dont understand how 3 yrs is unable to allow us understand, accept and tolerate one another. it's disappointing how time has been unable to change us. our sqd bonds seemed unbreakble in the past but it seems to have weakened. & i am really sry i chose to avoid taking promos. sry for being so weak as to simply run away from such a trivial obstacle. yet again, i am relieved i hadn been there to witness yet another conflict. u can doubt me but each time u all quarrel, i really feel lk crying. yea. i'm stupid ok? class: though i doubt anyone of u gna read this, i just wna apologise for causing all of u to have to put up with me as the cp. thx for tolerating this fact and trying ur very best to accept me and helping me out. & of course, thankyou for the encouragement and support u all have given( esp my retaerded family, weikai, charlene, chinhui & those present tt day aft school ) when u all told me i have changed for the btr i was really near tears. to me, i'm still the bad girl with the fked up bitch attitude. i will try my best to fulfil the duties as cp until someone takes over. thx alot guys=) & sry for being so slow in organising class stuff family: i dno wad's with me these few days to have given such sucky attitude but i just feel lk being alone, being able to make my own decisions. i guess im just too headstrong when it comes to affairs regarding my future. i dont know what i want. tt's y im choosing the longer way. call it self discovery if u lk. i just dont wnt any regrets mummy, sry for making u cry. for making u feel lk a total failure. u have tried ur best. it's my fault i am unble to c it tt way. sometimes i reallie wish u all wud stop caring abt me & just providing for me. lk tt, i suppose u wont get hurt so much. sry for failing to be a good daughter, a good sister, a good grand daughter. i'm sorry i took all ur care and concern for granted. OC?-tell me who to dedicate this to-: i know i'm in no position to say this but well, i will still say it even if it means i gna get into trouble or smth. correct me if i'm wrong. everything y'all are doing is simply to maintain uopa gold.but is it really worth it to lower our standards? in the past, rvnp was a silver unit with substance. but how about now? a gold unit in name? think again.. is it all tt glory tt matters? we used to be proud of ourselves tt we could do btr thn other gold unit although we only achieved silver. yet i doubt this wld be the case in future. i dont know how long more can all of us hold our heads up high in front of other units. i no longer believe in what i used to. i suppose this is for the best. i am suppose to just accept the present yea? |
yting l. 
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