nth worth believing in

i hate it tt im losing my temper when im chatting with babyJ on msn.
im really sry for th tone & th f words. im sry for getting angry at u tho it's just not ur fault.
i cant help it. trying to keep my attitude in check but im failing.
acting lk a kid & throwing tantrums aint gna help improve my mood but i so freaking wish ure right by me & getting upset tt u aint.
im being unreasonable i know. sry. i need to get over this moody-ness.
just noe tt im still loving u loads despite evt(:

these two days kinda sucks.
maybe dere were things which made them slightly better but i cant seem to cheer up, still.
perhaps if i had blogged ytd, i wldn be feeling so upset coz i wld have "let go" of some negatives buggine me since ytd.
i was just so tired i fell aslp shortly upon reaching home.

my non-existent ability to play floorball's a freaking huge disappointment to me.
considering giving up playing tho i was trying to do my best ytd.
it was simply a bad best. super disappointed in myself.
& th snrs hate me coz i scream. but pls, tt's th way ive ALWAYS been.
other thn tt, i screwed up at th basics & i fell agn during trgn. LK WTF's WRONG WITH ME?

walked th wrong way to th gate aft trgn.
it was so freaking dark & i got scared. dere were noone else arnd and it was damn dark at th noticeboard area. all th way to th stairs.
was totally wishing J's dere with me but well, he isnt so wdv.
kept telling myself to be brave tho i was super near tears alr.
i hate myself for being so weak. freak it

went out without my EC book tday & had to cab to school after going home to get it.
$20 flew away just lk tt. wow.
guess it's simply inevitable coz im stupid enough to leave it at home when deres no point in going to lecture without it. im just DUMB.
thank goodness babyJ was msging me(: super happy to see his msg in th morning lol
had horrendous fried kwaytiao from bizpark. nearly puked my ass off tho it was fun braving th disgusting food with KH&Shirley& seeing S get high xD. we didn finish th food coz yea.. it was too damn GROSS.

library session in attempt to read tru stuff for tmr's trip to changiAirport with lovelies(JANE,KERHUI,KERRY,SHIRLEY) was ok until he* came along.
was away & when i got back, he was sitting at where i used to sit before i left.
tt was ok with me until i suspected tt he looked tru my bag. th arrangement of things just looked diff &yea.. I HATE IT WHEN PPL(GUYS ESP) RANSACK MY BAG W/O PERMISSION.
didn reallie feel anth until Shirley told me tt he looked tru my stuff when i was away.
got freaking fed up & pissed off tho yea, i guess i overreacted la.
he's lucky i pretended to laugh it off.
& luckier tt i merely whacked him real hard with a book while treating it as a joke.
so freaking wanted to slap him at tt point of time.
i just value my privacy THAT much.

Food session with shirley aft school was <3 made me feel btr & LOOK! tt was wad we had. nicenicenice

RV-ed for my olvls results slip and thn back to Tamp to meet clar for dinner, shopping&books.
reached home at 11++ >.<
thot of lots of stuff on th long journey back home. emoed.
parents were nagging which contributed to part of my foul mood.
+ im stressed up over tmr's presentation. if i suck, im screwes. most prolly tt's what gna happen.
+ realised tt Baby's hp fked up to moment i logged into msn.
super -.- dno whether to cry or smth.

rmb when we first started, i told u i need loads of attention & tt im super reliant on my guy?
im trying to be more independent, to believe tt out feelings wun fade even if we dont see each other tt often but im failing terribly.
if M&i saw each other so much mre but he still_______, i dno if it gna be so much easier for us given th tyme we spend away from each other.
it sucks to be feeling so away from u, really.
esp when im feeling super moody.
& yea.. to make things worse, we cant even really msg tt much alr & ur hp had to spoil.
freaks.
i know it aint ur fault & ure alr trying ur best.
love u loads(: tc alrights?

-ChangiAirport tmr(:-
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