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Saturday, May 09, 2009
it srsly sucks to be living th life that's expected by others of me. i hate th control, yet dere's simply too many commitments, obligations to simply break away. yes, commitments&obligations. not responsibilities. sounds ironical but NO, it isnt. i dont even view them as what im r-e-s-p-o-n-s-i-b-l-e for. im so sick of having to live up to th family's expectations alr. being a good girl, being present at family events at th expense of my own activities, studying hard, not being able to do thisthat&that coz it's deemed as an embarrassment, not being able to dress in any specific way. everything's for reputation. it's so fking superficial i think it's pathetic. im just not th Yingting they want,they expect to be. it's tiring having to pretend so much to be accepted into what they call family. tell me.. if Family is where true love & acceptance is, why do i have to give up so much of myself, so much of what i really want to gain membership in this committee? i dont get it. neither do i get th "either u conform or the door is right there(leave)" option based on THEIR defination of th F word again. i dont want to regret not doing th things ive always wanted to. yet im obligated to not be a letdown to so many people. i guess i can only disappoint myself. sad fact. im missing J so much right now): |
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Give me presents on 09/10. I love rings, ice-cream, chocolate, candies, piercings & pretty little things. love lies. A-H: caihong. charlene. dallas. dengyin. garyim. homing. I-R: jeryl. jhosy. jiaxin. jocelyn. kerry. linjia. michelle. minee. mireen. munyee. noelle. peiwen. riwei:). S-Z: sally:). sherlyn. sinyeeL. vengyi. vivian weikaiN. winnie. xiaxue. May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 February 2012 April 2012 May 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 Designer : Chili. x o x o |