Sunday, May 10, 2009

slpy, tired, in tears, forcing myself to laugh & still updating.
im not thinking straight & im a lousy drinker. LMAO
freaking pissed tt im nt drunk yet cant think straight as well
just grabbed my dad's beer so i wldn end up in tears during dinner. true it kept me slightly happier for awhile but th effect doesnt seem to last.
freak.

trust him. stop being paranoid.
yet i cant seem to trust myself enough to be able to do so.
he merely said he gna be busy & i let my thots wander.
BabyJ loves me still. tt wasnt an excuse to distance himself lk what others say.

ohfk. im dno.
i hate myself for thinking so negatively, for not believing enough in us.
sorry baby. i guess im just too afraid too lose u tho it's higly inevitable.
im having too high hopes on th forever&always we "promised" each other.
tell me u love me. tell me ure busy with school/soccer/? &tell me ur feelings havent faded & will not fade. even if it's just to keep me going

im crazy. simply aint thinking straight/rationally.
but still,
if u ever stop loving me(maybe not now but in future), dont try to go on with th rs thinking u gna be able to get th feeling back alrights? dont stay with me coz of responsibility cause u aint gna be happy.

for now, i gna try my best to be independant.
i'll be waiting coz i still love u,loads (:

2days w/o meeting alr.
i cant help thinking of th time we spend at th stairs, downstairs his hse, at th playground etc,wishing he's just beside me now.
i wna fall aslp with him hugging me
& i didn realise how much i missed him until i actually dreamt of him in th snatches of slp i had during facial.
it was a happy dream yet i cant rmb what it was abt. silly me.

a little more of crying. before i slp.
goodnights(:
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