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Saturday, January 30, 2010
i admit i regret going to poly. regret taking HTM. regret not insisting on going SHATEC.regret not taking up SP's offer. but fk it. so what if i regret? sick and tired of having so many things to do, even if ive done so many things. im nt lk my classmate, Aizsa, who is really good at what she does (yes, i look up to her) neither am i lk kerry who is motivated to do well and works hard. no. im neither of them. & i did not wish to leave rv to try even harder in school. i also wish i did not wish rv for a simple reason. projects. all the time i was there, even if the proj is something chionged out last minute, it never fell short of a B. so fk it tt i was stupid enough to leave th people there. im nt saying poly peeps are bad. it's just tt rvians do things so differently i miss th way i was trained for 4yrs tho i hated th school and culture to th core. look, it's freaking tiring doing so much and having much more to do. it sucks having to give specific instructions for everything when things cldve been done perfectly well based on own discretion. know th stress of having to do evt to th best and fearing that th blame will be put on you if anything fks up? compiling's th whole big motherfking issue. true there's work well done but there's those that fall far short of expectations. imagine dealing with that proj after proj since sem 1 for NEARLY ALL th projs we have when most ppl just finish their parts and are spared. THAT IS Y LAONIANG WANTS TO JUST HAVE A PART IN PROJS AND SETTLE IT ASAP TOO. not tt i wldn help out if there's a need but hey, isnt it too much if im in nearly the same group for each proj and compiling's up to me as always? i said i wldn compile anymore after th prev sem but somehow th job's always pushed to me at th end. srsly wonder why this is so. is it because im easy to bully? or is it because i try not to pressurize ppl on the dateline cause i know it's hard having to juggle so many things? most other frens tell me it's both. am i supposed to conclude that it's because i try to be nice and understanding that i land myself in all tt shyt tt others can avoid? i guess it's hard for mutual respect to exist when everyone's involved in a race against time but i certainly dont expect to be made to do last min work on the day before a proj is due. think. how many times have i said "no, i cant do this". [maybe im asking for it by giving allowances (back to the issue on not pushing pple to diedie must submit by deadline) ]. i've always tried to accomodate, pushing everything to my limit based on the various dates for proj submissions. trust me, always having to rush when things were supp to be done long before SUCKS. I apologise for being incompetent if that pleases you. (i swear im not pointing fingers. pls dont take offence.) lesson learnt for th yr: in future, i'll not be a free rider but neither will i bother so much about other stuff in a proj. ppl who work with me in future, im sorry but u got the worse deal. ive had enough of evt and having ppl reproach me. random outburst. i guess im either emo or pmsing |
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