nth worth believing in

thanks for bringing me t smiles(:

work on fri&sat were fulfiling enough despite my crazy "behind t scenes" moments.
luckily i wasnt nuts when it came to serving t ppl xD
M's bullying makes me smile at times cause it brings me back to t kiddy days.

splurging makes me smile. even if only before i realised i bought smth i dont need & start worrying abt having not enough dollars.
hung out alone after work on fri. fep>bugis>Esplanade
t walk from cityhall to Espd reminded me of t fun times t 4 of us had tgt. really love u guys (kh,sithu,patrick) and i hope u will all be happy no matter what.
rmb laughing at kh and complaining abt how sithu's "reaching soon" is sooooo far from t truth.
rmb cabbing down to find sithu after sentosa tho it seemed lk a mistake afterall. t night ended badly & 4 of us nv went out tgt after tt alr.

sitting at our usual spot really brought back mmrs which hit me as i drifted between thoughts,
saw an elderly English couple who were real sweet, exchanging hugs and long kisses while in a world of their own. t husband even helped t wife put on her shoes when they were abt to leave.
cant help but wish to have t same happy marriage in future tho this encounter reminded me even more of how lonely i was.
hp died on me so i was really uhm... alone? sucks to have thoughts as my only companions-.-

time w wj ytd made me smile desite t rs&sch blues.
dnt knw how i had tears in my eyes when i woke up.
cancelled work (sorry for not turning up last min but i really cldn bring myself to go for some reasons)
called P cause M said he had to replace me if i cant make it (ended up M was oni jk w me-.-)
despite t laughs during t call, i cant help but realise how lil we truely understand each other. P really dont know when im srs abt stuff. cnt help but compare how wj wld noe instantly when smth i bring up really matter to me even if i say it jokingly. P doesnt but continue making a joke out of it.
idk whether to be happy that my hints are not picked up so i keep my troubles to myself or be upset that t lvl of understanding i need just isnt there.

wj met me when i was buying stuff for ssm.
really made my day by just being there. thanks yinyang juu(:

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there's so many things i need to say, need to be assured of & need to know.
i really need to know that u love me, that i am impt to u too.
i need our rs to be defined. either that we're just friends or a couple.
i really need to know if im single or attached.
it sucks to be hovering in between, not knowing what to say when ppl ask if im single.
single but unavailable sounds stupid and always invites a "why" which im unwilling to explain.
sucks saying im attached when really, all tt im truly attached to is a softtoy.
i want to know what we mean to u cause ive really had enough of t insecurity and uncertainty.
if we're just friends to u, id move on to another rs w a guy who can treat me t way i want to be treated if i meet one. not deprive me nd him of a chance cause im hopelessly stuck in a rs which is one-sided.
& if we're a couple, i'll be more firm in keeping a dist from other guys.

u really have no idea do u?

yting l.

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