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Monday, August 30, 2010
been sleeping quite alot and letting my mind drift lately. not bad to be dozing off and thinking abt random 'cept tt ive got 3 papers to study for. & bad news, im screwed for real this time round. annoying? yes. havent been meeting baby these days. & it's been really long since we last saw each other. 渐渐的, 我习惯了没有他在我身边, 习惯了一个人想怎样就怎样. 我知道这样对他很不公平但是我真的已习惯没有他陪伴我的世界. 因为孤独, 我让自己被别人感动.即使我和另一个他不可能在一起. 另一个他爱的不是我可是我们依然很亲密. 甚至到了有点彼此依赖的境界. 这么做确实有点贱也非常不应该,但是我却没有停止的决心. 做了这样对不起爱我的人的事, 对的选择该是向他坦诚和分手吧? 可是我好自私.我 想把他留在身边 i know he's th one who loves me nearly th most. & that he will always be thr tho not quite th way i hoped he was. 我讨厌自己利用他来保护我.但是我认为他不知道这些事对他会比较好吧.. 毕竟,他忽略我对他而言是有我必须理解的原因. 是我这个宠坏的真的无发接受他所给的理由. you knw, i think i kinda regret getting into a "official" rs. whn things were just "thr but not quite thr yet", thrs so much more freedom with les expectations attached to a rs. any thing tt falls short can be brushed off with simply "he/she's not my bf/gf la. cnt expect tt much" and things tt go well are bonuses. i miss life lk tt tho whn things are as such, i grow to resent th insecurity. th world really cant be perfect uh? i wish i can just slp and evt will be sorted out whn im awake. |
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