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Sunday, December 05, 2010
im not crying. only because th tears refuse to fall. my thots have been hopping arnd these days. to th extent of me not knowing whts going on, not concentrating on tasks on hand either. sometimes i wonder why i was stupid enough to choose HTM in the first place & why i was dumb enough to choose modules i fuck up in. i dont know if i overestimate myself cause each time, i just tell myself it gna be alright/i'll be able to handle it. & each time i fall short of my expectations. sometimes i snap back into reality and realise that for th past hour or so, ive been curled up staring at facebook/msn contacts etc, not doing anything in particular. just thinking how weird it is for us to have been in a rs before and gone our seperate ways. it just makes me wonder what had resulted in my actions and his. all those imperfections... is it because we aint made for each other? because if tt's th case, we wldve been like side-by-side pieces on a jigsaw puzzle. somehow, maybe we had been put tgt for so long despite th existence of the "right fit" somewhere else, with someone else. & sometimes i wonder why im even having such thots. they're so overwhelming i end up fighting for breath, wishing i cld just cry and let it all out. i wna find peace in an embrace. arms tt wld cocoon me while i cry, reassuring me tt im safe and evt's gna be fine. just with th pair of arms. what sucks the most is, im unable to find one who gives me tht kinda feeling.. thrs just no such chemistry among those present now. maybe thrs this one person. but he cnt be th one. & i noe wht he can give is only temporary,fleeting. now i wonder what's left, what's coming next. |
yting l. 
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