nth worth believing in

only human.
i wish i were less mistakes prone. less emotional. more aware of my surroundings. more mindful of myself. because i mess up all th time, big time.
& im still damn guilty for losing my temper at someone who's been thr whn i was down and alone. someone who barely knew me yet took care of me th entire night whn i was blabbering my drunk head off and even after that. tho i dont know if u will ever read this.. yes, i dont act lk i mean wht i told u. so i wasnt in any position to throw the bitch fit whn u judged me. i really am sorry. whether u believe wht i said is entirely up to you.
here's my explanation: ive got awesome colleagues to keep me sane at work bt after work's another thing. and rather thn emo at home, i rather get drunk, go crazy. i rather be surrounded by a whole lot of ppl who're having fun thn drown in my guilt&confusion at home. i cnt forever be bugging th ppl arnd me to talk me to slp can i?

being only human sucks. i wish i cld phase. be a cat whn i want to.
so i'd noe wht my kitty friends think. See th pic of th ginger lying in th middle of th pavement on my fb page? he's partially blind. bt he rmbs me best among all th other cats. i havent seen them for close to 2 mths. & he was th only one who still responds when i snap my fingers. he followed me to th usual spot, circled my feet and lay down just listening to me talk. i wish i cld stroke him, show him th love he deserves bt i cnt because his partial blindness means he has taken to scratching anyth tt reaches out to him first. and for tt im sorry. i apologised many times over bt idk if he understands. i wnt to tell him tt he's lovely as well and i love him no less thn th other cats.

i miss Tigger too. because he understands me best. he used to come running to me whn i near th voiddeck of my blk after school. and he'd sit w me on th steps whn im down even tho i was crying on my own. i rmb him licking my hand as if to tell me he'd always be thr. i still hate tt motherfucker who ran over him on a bike which resulted in damaging his organs. he died of dehydration because nth cld be done to save him. and u noe th best thing? that fucker just left him there. i hope ure ran over by a car. bt i hope someone will send u to th hospital whr th docs cnt do anth to save u. & u cn jolly well feel ur organs shutting down one by one. U FUCKING LEFT TH CAT TO DIE WHEN U CLD AT LEAST SEND IT TO TH VET, MAYBE HE CLD BE SAVED OR AT TH V LEAST PUT TO SLP INSTEAD OF FEELING HIS LIFE EBB OUT OF HIM BIT BY BIT UNTIL SOMEONE FOUND HIM. u know, he might still be here now if not for u, bastard.
to Tigger: pls forgive me for nt being thr for u, for not knowing whr u disappeared to until after that. for not ever having told u how much i love u. thank you for always being there. u hv no idea hw much i miss u..

yting l.

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