nth worth believing in

The stupid things do whn feeling empty.

Sat night. will defi being going crazy no matter what.

And maybe fri night alone.

i look f-horrendous now because my sleep's screwed.
dozing waking up in the middle of the night in tears like now. not being able to get back to slp.
why the fuck am i this messed up when im the one initiating th break up?
i dont know. i find dumping as confusing as being dumped.
nights like this, i wish i had someone to sniff to slp or curl up against.
anyone but him. anyone who can make things feel btr.

reality check.
ive got to stop being like this. because thrs no pt hoping.
u see, not believing or wanting makes u see things clearer without the hope/ vision of a happier ending.
not coveting keeps u down-to-earth. right?
it's weird but no. i need to see things clearer bt then, what wld happen to my goals?
rmb i said i wna find a rich guy? given my fked up attitude and looks it seems lk a joke.

what freaks me out the most's that when someone asked me whther it's true tt girls like dating guys w cars, i actually replied "no. i lk guys who wld take long bus rides w me" and meant it from the bottom of my heart.
i realised that other thn that, what i want is a guy who wld love to eat normal hawker centre food, $1 ice-cream or try some themed cafes w me. restaurants and high-end brands are indulgences.
i want a guy whom i can shop with and wld be more than willing to shop with me, a guy who loves road trips and wld save up to go to USA w me for one.
lastly, i hope that guy loves furry animals lk me and wld b willing to sponsor a kennel together/ volunteer tgt.

so pls enlighten me.. am i btr off believing or what?
but before that, knock me out pls..

yting l.

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