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Wednesday, September 19, 2012
im blogging because im in some mixture of euphoria and horror after mindfucked by my thoughts. most of you wld probably have read that Xiaxue's pregnant in her most recent blogpost (wait.. what am i talking abt.. i bet it's trending on twitter Lol) Saw her announcement on insta and im lk.. REALLY?! bad mistake not scrolling down instead. i didnt hv anth to do while waiting for th bus home so i ended up reading her blog -.- rly salute her for how she wrote a post like that in her usual light-hearted humour. but goddamnit. ive to admit i was rly touched by its simple contents. which eventually led to this. ohkay. i think th whole world knows im not a huge fan of babies/kids. in fact, im very much terrified by what most ppl identify as the cutest, most angelic category of human unless im married to a rather handsome, middle aged, wealthy angmoh. yes. i just dun find myself being particularly attracted to kids of any other races. i find them cute when they are on their best behaviour but rly, ive never rly been mesmerized by them.(im sorry i sound like a racist, unloving bitch but it was also part of th reason why i eventually broke up w a rly sweet guy. no. i didnt dump him cause he's not an angmoh. he was just too fatherly it freaked/annoyed th hell outta me) now you probably hv some idea on why im here. i.think.it's.not.a.bad.thing.to.hv.a.kid.anymore. fmlwhatshappeningtome i may have gotten curious about how it feels lk to have an ultrasound,listening to some weird heartbeat in me & life as a mummy. or uhm.. a happy family life w boyfried (omg baby, pls dont freak out and dump me yet. u noe i will probably just stick not not wanting a kid eventually) & wdv complete life after marriage sorta idea. but i think if i rly were to have a kid in future, i'd wish for a son who resembles boyfriend from his appearance to the person he gna be. maybe just have my eyes cause i think my eye shape nice *oops* but look lk daddy. & rly, pls dont be short like me or have my character and messed up hormones. it's rly nice to have a lil boy like him. *slap myself* I AM NOT WISHING FOR A KID. sorry. lemme undo my thoughts and stick w my usual ideal lifestyle. im happy adopting inanimate objects (refer to my blue chaps for what i mean to say). breathe. just lemme get back to normal. i wonder if The Secret works. like if i wish hard enough not to ever have a kid, it will come true right? ok.. just bear w my ignorant babbling. dk how tt works. nv read it & if it doesnt work this way, let me chance upon a meteor shower so i can unwish wishing for a kid. *knocks head on wall* goodnight |
yting l. 
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